false hope

[pyprpunk]

is it bad that i have come to accept the fact that any relationship
anyperson i attempt to meet or converstate with that might ... in some sort of way have intentions or hope for anysort of relationship aspect... I simply ignore the idea all together
I do not find any sort of comfort in getting to know someone i do not know. because i feel I already know them all... i feel i do not trust them with the simple thing that is my heart. and i will not ever let them close to this twisted mind of mine?...
is it bad i do not trust a word they say? nor do i care to even give them the benefit of a doubt.

i find myself just simply not caring about anything or any one .. all the time
i do not care if i offend people... i kinda get off on the fact that i do offend people
it is some sort of sadistic .release...
makes me smile deep inside when .. no emotions show ... elsewhere

I am old enough to know.... live is not blind... though we have said it all these years..

lovers are the ones that are blind... dumb asses are the ones that are blind....
hence why you make them your puppet... and do as you wish to them.. manipulate their young souls... until you have drained them of every last hope of happiness they will ever have and break them... throw them to the curb.

someone is always lying....
in a ditch

someone is always bright eyed and innocent
waiting to be broken

you just have to look in the right places....

I for one.. feel like i am detached.. and surely... do not care anymore...

no one can sweep me off my feet and take me to a place i have never known fore i know it all
and refuse to believe in a facade. , i will not be tainted... or broken ever again..
for the walls around what makes me me.. will never be scaled or brought down no matter whom the person is...

i do not trust you