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I'm feeling so much better. When I look at certain things and see him, that horrible feeling rarely comes. My stomach is slowly going back to normal now, I think. I am so happy. I feel joyful for the first time in a long time (besides the cruise). I seriously have the cruise to thank. It seems retarded thanking a vacation for helping me overcome stpupid feelings, but it really, really helped me in a way that no person could. I feel strong now, and content. I just want to get out and celebrate as if I just won a race or something. I know, I'm really sad and pathetic, but I just don't care anymore! I'm going out!