oh so sick of being tired.
it just seems like everything out here is becoming a race. Seeing how much I can get done, when. The work has been piling up and in response to that I tend to procrastinate more. I try to put off everything so I don't have to deal with anything. It's a bad habit I develop in my undergrad, but now I'm beginning to reap what I sow, who would of ever thought such things would come true?
You know? I'm jealous of everyone who got a fall break. I know that we started really late and thats why I don't get a fall break, but I do feel like I need one right now. So much busy work, I'll need sometime to catch up. AND I fear that I might have to do some paper writing/work over turkey break. I didn't want to do that (since it will be my first time seeing Mandy in a long time) but alas I might need too. lame graduate school.
I also register for classes soon, which is daunting. Another quarter to go. Another one to get under my belt.
Seminary has become quite the interesting place for me. Never have I heard such diversity on the body of Christ, but yet such commitment to the Kingdom of God. I enjoy it, but as of lately, I have found myself welled up in spiritual pride. The kind where I feel like I need to only take orders straight for the mouth of God, when in all reality, I need to realize in my humbleness that God uses everyone to speak to me. If I shut my ears to everyone, or judge everything that comes out of everyone's mouth, I will miss out on a lot of what God is trying to say to me. But to lower myself (intellectually) underneath someone and really listen to people has never been my strongest point, so I am confident that I will work harder on that.
but, it's always still a challenge. My faith is tested everyday. Not on what is being said, but even just being here. In a fast paced culture that is LA. The care free, buy now, feeling. I have never been so exposed to social injustice and felt so sick to my stomach about how the Body of Christ shuts its eyes to some places. Also another challenge is that I miss my friends back home, my family and of course, my Mandy. Its very easy to get lonely out here. To sit by yourself and think about how the people you love, are thousands of miles away. Yes, a phone call is nice, but sometimes seeing them would be even better.
Well its off to church. I will be trying once again to update more, but like I said, it's fast paced out here. I study, hang out with people when I can, and attend church so I don't drown. But God will get me through, He will sustain me, He has created me and will continue to create new and great things through me. I just need to rely on Him for my strength and not my own.
Oh and it also sucked to think that this time last year, I was in GA for fall games. That made me miss my wife even more.
You know? I'm jealous of everyone who got a fall break. I know that we started really late and thats why I don't get a fall break, but I do feel like I need one right now. So much busy work, I'll need sometime to catch up. AND I fear that I might have to do some paper writing/work over turkey break. I didn't want to do that (since it will be my first time seeing Mandy in a long time) but alas I might need too. lame graduate school.
I also register for classes soon, which is daunting. Another quarter to go. Another one to get under my belt.
Seminary has become quite the interesting place for me. Never have I heard such diversity on the body of Christ, but yet such commitment to the Kingdom of God. I enjoy it, but as of lately, I have found myself welled up in spiritual pride. The kind where I feel like I need to only take orders straight for the mouth of God, when in all reality, I need to realize in my humbleness that God uses everyone to speak to me. If I shut my ears to everyone, or judge everything that comes out of everyone's mouth, I will miss out on a lot of what God is trying to say to me. But to lower myself (intellectually) underneath someone and really listen to people has never been my strongest point, so I am confident that I will work harder on that.
but, it's always still a challenge. My faith is tested everyday. Not on what is being said, but even just being here. In a fast paced culture that is LA. The care free, buy now, feeling. I have never been so exposed to social injustice and felt so sick to my stomach about how the Body of Christ shuts its eyes to some places. Also another challenge is that I miss my friends back home, my family and of course, my Mandy. Its very easy to get lonely out here. To sit by yourself and think about how the people you love, are thousands of miles away. Yes, a phone call is nice, but sometimes seeing them would be even better.
Well its off to church. I will be trying once again to update more, but like I said, it's fast paced out here. I study, hang out with people when I can, and attend church so I don't drown. But God will get me through, He will sustain me, He has created me and will continue to create new and great things through me. I just need to rely on Him for my strength and not my own.
Oh and it also sucked to think that this time last year, I was in GA for fall games. That made me miss my wife even more.