happy winter soltice!
well, kids, it's that time of year again.
the time of year when good will toward your fellow wo/man should provail.
the time of year when family and friends gather to share the "joy of the season".
etc.
etc.
etc.
yet again, it doesn't feel right. for the past few years, it hasn't felt like christmas. not since i've come to college. maybe even before that. this year, it seems like most people i talk to don't feel the christmas spirit.
i have a feeling that if damien wasn't alive/around, we wouldn't even bother with christmas this year. i'd probably just stay in davis and work and work and wait for people to come back to town.
i was talking to ashley the other day and said that it might feel more like christmas if i had someone. but that's probably not true. i doubt i'll really feel christmasy again until i have kids of my own and see the excitement in their eyes. or maybe all it will take is a christmas tree that i decorate in my analretentivechristmastreedecorating fashion. oh yes. i am very anal about the way my tree is decorated and what types of ornaments are used. maybe next year i'll get myself a tree and some decorations and see if that helps.
dear kristy,
you should come to davis on the 27th of december. we can go to dollar drink night and have lots of fun. or. we can go prancing at g st pub. they have a dj on wednesdays. you can stay at my house and sleep under the kitty blanket. the end.
love,
liv
p.s. also, pluto's.
maybe i'm trying to force myself into feeling something different. maybe this is my christmas spirit. i do want to go to albany. see my mom. see my nephew. spend time together either doing a puzzle or playing a game. listen to my favorite christmas cd (which i need to remember to rip on to my computer).
there's only one reason i dont' want to go to albany. one of my cats won't be there. the one that always slept on my bed with me. she won't be there to follow me around the house and drool on my clothes and keep me covered in fur.
eh. it was her time. and she knows i loved her and still do.
ok. i'm gonna stop depressing myself before it gets to late.
two more days at cbarn. one day at beach. then albany for two days. then back to davis.
♥