LIfe is never what you expect

Aug 26, 2007 17:36

So, at least in my experience, things are good, then things change, and you get scared maybe, and then you look up, and find that things are wonderful, but not what you expected.

It's like, a part of you gets taken away, and you acutely feel the loss, and you wish and wish it was back how it was. So you cling to it, and look for something just like it. Regrettably, chances are, no such thing exists any longer. It was irreplaceable.

So then you flail and scream and kick and bite and cry and feel like you're gonna die.

It is at this time, I wish to illustrate, with a quote from CS Lewis's Perelandra

"One goes into the forest to pick food and already the thought of one fruit rather than another has grown up in one’s mind. Then, it may be, one finds a different fruit, and not the fruit one thought of. One joy was expected, and another was given. But this I had never noticed before-that the very moment of the finding there is in the mind a kind of thrusting back, or setting aside. The picture of the fruit you have not found is still, for a moment, before you. And if you wished- if it were possible to wish-you could keep it there. You could send your soul after the good you had expected, instead of turning it to the good you had got. You could refuse the real good; you could make the real fruit taste insipid by thinking of the other." -The Green Lady (Perelandra, page 69)

You can read more, it goes on and gets better ^.^ http://www.anselm.edu/homepage/dbanach/perelandra.htm

I understand that bad things exist and happen. I fully comprehend that not all life is good. I get that.

However, I have also noticed, when we lose a good thing, when something gets taken away, we cling to it, and want it exactly as it was. This can cause us to lose sight of the new good that has come - it covers the same need but is a different colour. Like, for example, moving to a new place. You kind of freak out and go "Nooooooooo! I want to be hooooome!! Now!!!" And believe me, you do. But if you refuse to get out of your pity party and you just hide all day, you will miss all the new wonderful people you could meet and things you could do. Life is never what you expect. You o in fact leave your best friend behind when you move, and no one's ever gonna be just like them, but then you get to make new friends, who, as it were, fill the same type of hole. Another, less dramatic for you all example, so, I brought 2 mugs from home to NU. They were my favourite, black and white, perfect for hot chocolate. So they were great at college for winter and spring quarters, where they went on many adventures with me. Then, on move out day, the last day of the year, I couldn't find them! I was so gutted! They were my favourites and I had brought them from home! And, like, I was sad, and wanted to buy more just like them, but of course that would be really difficult, if not impossible, and they wouldn't be the same anyway, because they wouldn't be from home, an wouldn't have gone on all those adventures with me (Yaay chai!). So I was glum, and mug-less. But it's ok, because I was living at someone's house, so didn't need one. But still.... I missed them

I knew it was silly to keep clinging to the image of them, when they were gone, but I still did it. I knew to replace them, I would need something equally sentimental. Thank goodness - the girls who used to live in Matt's apparently left all kinds of crazy stuff, and Matt n Carol gave me a pretty green mug. :) So, yeah. You get things back, but not in the way you expected, or originally had it. College is kind of like that to the max. Like...0000.

This isn't going to sound like it relates, but I assure you, it does.

I think I used to have squires. Then I came to college and found that there were other people, more people on this planet that had the ability to just make me laugh. I never ever suspected to find such an abundant source of laughter here, such magic. I found my courts overflowing with Jesters.

I dunno. Life always comes at you from left field.

Here's another quote from the Green Lady:

"Want him?" she said. "How could there be anything I did
not want?" - The Green Lady. This one actually relates to what we talked about before; see, I know our world is not like Perelandra in that not everything in it is good. But the sentiment is still there. Do miss New Zealand? Yes. If I were there would I miss here? Yes. But look at it this way: "Missing people is really hard. But in some ways, missing people is a good sign. It means that you have made a friend. And friends are wonderful treasures. I just wish I could have all my treasures in one box, not scattered all over the globe." - Marilyn

So yeah. Like that. It's good to miss things, because it means you had a good thing.

Here are some more cool quotes from Perelandra, which relate less:

"To walk out of His will is to walk into nowhere" The Queen of Perelandra

"Where can you taste the joy of obeying unless he bids you do something for which His bidding is the only reason?" -Ransom

mugs, unexpected, college, perelandra, chai, change friends, new zealand

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