drinking games
I hung out with Tasha and Craig last night :-)
Which led to spending the night and playing drinking games.
Adam calls me while we're out to eat and says, "I was wondering when you were gonna call...and then I realized I said I'd call you..."
So I call him before the drinking games begin and he's like "Guess who called me..." Erin. This girl, to be politically incorrect, who I think is a bitch. They haven't spoken in at least 2 and a half months. Apparently she thought SHE had to notified when Adam gets a girlfriend but if she had been listening rather than insulting him, he did tell her that he'd intended on dating me... way back when. So she likes him... I don't give a rat's ass if she does have a boyfriend, she likes him....or she's crazy. Or maybe both. B/c she was a bitch to him, and at one point slept around a lot. In fact, she's part of the reason his last relationship ended. So Idk which part of knowing they're "talking" today or hanging out actually is supposed to make me feel all warm and fuzzy. I trust him, but I DON'T have to like her. So we got in an argument b/c he tried to defend her even though he's the one that told me all the nasty things about her.
This argument ended somewhere around 2:30 AM when I was VERY intoxicated... well, drunk. And said, "I love ya kid..." and he says, "[haha]I'm not a kid..." So then the words "I love you" came out of my mouth without me consciously realizing it. I quickly said, "Goodnight" and hung up.h I hope that he'll just forget it even though he won't. But what does it matter really when he doesn't reciprocate. Who cares. I told him I wish I could rewind time back to when I wasn't sure if I even wanted to care about him as more than a friend b/c he tried so damn hard to be close to me and was always so excited to touch me... now I'm just old news b/c we're "comfortable"... I wish I could go back to days when he said things like "You smile at me and it makes my day..." He says, "What makes you think that's changed?" It has. He's not that excited anymore. He's happy, but not excited. He said the words, "I care about you..." I told him to record it. Don't think I'll hear it again for a long time.
Blah. I'm rambling. Killing time fore work.
chow
Which led to spending the night and playing drinking games.
Adam calls me while we're out to eat and says, "I was wondering when you were gonna call...and then I realized I said I'd call you..."
So I call him before the drinking games begin and he's like "Guess who called me..." Erin. This girl, to be politically incorrect, who I think is a bitch. They haven't spoken in at least 2 and a half months. Apparently she thought SHE had to notified when Adam gets a girlfriend but if she had been listening rather than insulting him, he did tell her that he'd intended on dating me... way back when. So she likes him... I don't give a rat's ass if she does have a boyfriend, she likes him....or she's crazy. Or maybe both. B/c she was a bitch to him, and at one point slept around a lot. In fact, she's part of the reason his last relationship ended. So Idk which part of knowing they're "talking" today or hanging out actually is supposed to make me feel all warm and fuzzy. I trust him, but I DON'T have to like her. So we got in an argument b/c he tried to defend her even though he's the one that told me all the nasty things about her.
This argument ended somewhere around 2:30 AM when I was VERY intoxicated... well, drunk. And said, "I love ya kid..." and he says, "[haha]I'm not a kid..." So then the words "I love you" came out of my mouth without me consciously realizing it. I quickly said, "Goodnight" and hung up.h I hope that he'll just forget it even though he won't. But what does it matter really when he doesn't reciprocate. Who cares. I told him I wish I could rewind time back to when I wasn't sure if I even wanted to care about him as more than a friend b/c he tried so damn hard to be close to me and was always so excited to touch me... now I'm just old news b/c we're "comfortable"... I wish I could go back to days when he said things like "You smile at me and it makes my day..." He says, "What makes you think that's changed?" It has. He's not that excited anymore. He's happy, but not excited. He said the words, "I care about you..." I told him to record it. Don't think I'll hear it again for a long time.
Blah. I'm rambling. Killing time fore work.
chow