but I'd better not touch...

[pvt_church]

Church sits on his bed, leaning against the wall and meticulously cleaning his sniper rifle. He hums a song he used to listen to religiously, back in the days when he was first hot for Tex. Nobody would believe it now, but he wasn't really that much of a pessimist or even a bad boy until she came into the picture. He almost misses those days, but

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[pvt_church]

"No," Church murmurs plaintively, breaking the kiss. "Don't go away, not yet."

There goes calming down- he already has a feeling Caboose doesn't care how close he gets or how far they go, and by now, the last thing Church wants is to disengage. He sinks back into kissing as if he needed it more than air, and huddles further into Caboose's cradling form, pulling them closer together by the hips and involuntarily grinding into his partner's. The sensation of it makes him catch his breath and stop moving for a moment. When Caboose doesn't push him away, he grinds again, slower and more carefully this time. It feels different than it did with girls in the past- firmer and with more contact, especially since Caboose doesn't pull back from it the way a girl would. Church can definitely get used to this...

[thebluerookie]

The moment Church said that Caboose's arms returned to holding him firmly.

"That feels good Church."

Absently he mumbled as his fingers started following the contours of Church's back, letting it decided his path,

"Am I the first guy you've...?"

[pvt_church]

Church slows down and looks at Caboose, his face suddenly going blank and his eyes darkening. He has to try not to scowl- it's not like Caboose meant anything wrong by asking. Church thinks for a few seconds, picking the right words that won't fuck things up or be untrue. He rests his chin on Caboose's shoulder, stifling a sigh. "By choice, yeah."

[thebluerookie]

"Oh... I just meant that... That you, um. You're good, at this."

Caboose didn't curse very often, his family just didn't; but he'd really fucked this up.

He turned his head slightly and kissed Church's temple, the only bit of him he could really reach with that angle.

He squeezed around church's waist reflexively as he said "Church are you happy with me holding you like this, cause I can hold you differently; if its more comfortable; for you, I mean. Just tell me what you want, and I'll do it."

[pvt_church]

Church immediately regrets his change of mood and silently berates himself for letting it get to him. That was a long time ago, and he should know better than to be afraid of something like that again. If anything, it ought to be better, because this time he wants to, right? He frowns into Caboose's shoulder and turns his head to kiss him on the cheek, squeezing him wherever he can.

"I like however you hold me, but I want to keep doing... yeah, what we were doing. If you want to."

[thebluerookie]

"Yeah I want to, but you uh take the lead. That okay, church?"

[pvt_church]

Church blinks, unsure of his ability to do that. Well, he can try...

"Uhh. Sure. Just... I don't know how good I'll be."

He swallows and shrugs Caboose's arm loose, sitting up to straddle him. Church stares at Caboose for a few moments, trying to think. He'd always had to deal with foreplay before, when he was with girls. It had never been of much consequence to him, but now he has to figure out of Caboose likes to rock before he rolls, as it were. Sure, the rookie will do anything he asks, but that concept had never really appealed to Church to begin with. Caboose had started out as a pain in the ass, and now he's... well, Church doesn't know what the hell he is right now. A fucking saint, maybe. Definitely not someone to give orders to, at least not in a situation like this. He decides to play it by ear and see where things go. He reaches down to stroke Caboose's brow, and smiles slightly nervously.

"Uhh. Why don't you sit up then? Sit up and hold me?"

[thebluerookie]

Unless Caboose had been concentrating he wouldn’t have noticed the hesitation and nervousness in what church said and did, usually he would have missed it completely and taken Church’s words at face value

[pvt_church]

Church closes his eyes and lets it happen, getting lost in the touches down the front of his body. He misses the kissing already, but at this point, he knows it'll happen again. He can't stop himself from squirming a little under Caboose's attention, the guiding and touches and kisses stirring the interest of his nethers. His eyes drift open when he's laid out on the pillow, and he strokes Caboose's hair, staring at the ceiling. His eyes widen when he feels his pants being tampered with, and he glances down at Caboose. So much for taking the lead, he thinks, pleased. He slips his hands over Caboose's and presses them onto the material, arching his hips a little to further relay the point.

[thebluerookie]

Caboose grinned, unwilling to break their locked gaze; he working off touch, pulling on the pants hem, sliding them down.

Okay, heres the decision, tease or straight to the main event... he was still trying to decide while his hand abandoned their mission to get Church's pants completely off at around his knees, and started randomly tracing patterns on Church’s inner thigh; barely letting his fingertips even make contact with the skin. But he was going to go straight to the main event. His hands were ignoring him, stupid hands ignoring a perfectly good plan… he couldn’t stay mad with them, they were touching Church.

The bed really wasn’t long enough for this, so he had to bend his knees back so he could get into the right position, but no matter. Maybe they could push a few of the beds together tomorrow, there were enough in storage… ‘focus!’ he mentally ordered himself. Here he was with Church, doing what he dreamed about… what if it’s all a dream?

“Church, this is real right? I’m not going to wake up in bed alone after this am I

[pvt_church]

Church's leg muscles tense under Caboose's touch, shivering a little. He looks almost sad for a second at Caboose's question, but that passes. "I doubt it," he smiles. "Unless you decapitate me or something."

[thebluerookie]

"You doubt it's real? Cause I wanted to do this for a real long time. I even dreamed about it a few times, there were never two of you in those dreams though."

[pvt_church]

"Two of me?" Church furrows his brow with confusion. "I meant I doubt you'll wake up alone, but what do you mean by two of me?"

[thebluerookie]

"Oh... I am relieved; I was worried I was dreaming again. Sometimes I dream about here in the Gulch, and in some of them there's two of you; like two Churchs standing around."

"But the rest of the time I usually dream about home, and food, and wrestling. And sometimes you'd be in those too, even though you didn't fit into the rest of the dream."

[pvt_church]

"Weird," Church remarks. "I don't even pay attention to my dreams anymore. They stopped making sense a long time ago. Don't worry," he assures Caboose, sitting up and hugging the rookie's head to his chest. "You're not dreaming now, and I'm not gonna disappear."

[thebluerookie]

"Not even if Tex comes back to life too?"