Don't take this too seriously
Well, lets see. I am really tired of being here. I really want to go home to Michigan again. I want to see my family. I don't want to do certain things, like work on websites. That is a constant burden. I need to find a place where I no longer feel burdened. Give up the things that I don't care to do anymore- things that I am tired of. I want to change my environment. I want to have a huge change of pace- I need it or I feel I will choke to death here. Everyday the same thing. Let me stop, send me to another country, or find another country here. That sounds like a good idea- I need to be refreshed.
I am afraid that I am doing the wrong thing by spending another year at FullSail. I might not survive here. Can I really do a year of paperwork? Hard paperwork?
There are many things that I have neglected to do. There are some really important things that I just don't ever fell like doing. I don't know why. I don't have enough strength to accomplish anything without external motivation. Maybe that's not true- but I haven't proved it wrong yet.
This sounds like a bunch of messed up BS. But it's mostly true.
Time moves to quickly. And too slow at times. Tomorrow we move to another apartment. Tomorrow, I think- I expect it will be a lot of work. Brad is annoying to me.
I had an interesting conversation with someone who I have never really talked before. Lewandowski, David. We talked about a lot of things. I wish I had known him more. Why don't I make more friends? Why haven't I spent more time with these people outside of school. . It seems I have missed a lot of opportunities.
Eithel said that sometimes I just don't know what to say. . . I didn't realize it but he said that I mumble, like- I haven't decided what to say. I guess it is true. Plus I don't know how to talk with people. I really don't- I don't know how to have a normal conversation, or I just do so very rarely. Can this be true. I freak people out, I say strange things, sometimes it is an act, but maybe I have acted so long that I don't know how to be straight with anyone anymore. Maybe I am messed up. Maybe it is everyone else- not likely.
This is just a brain dump. Don't take it too seriously.
I am afraid that I am doing the wrong thing by spending another year at FullSail. I might not survive here. Can I really do a year of paperwork? Hard paperwork?
There are many things that I have neglected to do. There are some really important things that I just don't ever fell like doing. I don't know why. I don't have enough strength to accomplish anything without external motivation. Maybe that's not true- but I haven't proved it wrong yet.
This sounds like a bunch of messed up BS. But it's mostly true.
Time moves to quickly. And too slow at times. Tomorrow we move to another apartment. Tomorrow, I think- I expect it will be a lot of work. Brad is annoying to me.
I had an interesting conversation with someone who I have never really talked before. Lewandowski, David. We talked about a lot of things. I wish I had known him more. Why don't I make more friends? Why haven't I spent more time with these people outside of school. . It seems I have missed a lot of opportunities.
Eithel said that sometimes I just don't know what to say. . . I didn't realize it but he said that I mumble, like- I haven't decided what to say. I guess it is true. Plus I don't know how to talk with people. I really don't- I don't know how to have a normal conversation, or I just do so very rarely. Can this be true. I freak people out, I say strange things, sometimes it is an act, but maybe I have acted so long that I don't know how to be straight with anyone anymore. Maybe I am messed up. Maybe it is everyone else- not likely.
This is just a brain dump. Don't take it too seriously.