I believe in me, so you believe in you.
It's nice feeling like a somewhat sociable person. I have never been on fair terms with everyone in my class before, so it feels good.
However, it is now I realise that I very much prefer being alone lol. I always tell people NOT to wait for me, because I most likely won't wait for them, but they do it anyway out of some social obligation. It's nice of them -that I can't deny- but they better not expect the same out of me because I don't believe in social obligations. I do what I feel like doing; there's no simpler answer than that.
At times I feel like a hypocrite, however now it kind of makes sense. I think I've always been a lonely person, so I've conditioned myself to function happily alone. This isn't a whining post lol - I love life. I'm so happy right now. I always say that my feelings are isolated incidents, and I honestly believe that. With such an awesome family to go home to, nothing the outside world throws at me can truly affect me now. God's on my side too - I don't need outside people.
I've taken the habit of hugging my parents regularly, and telling them I love them. You'll be surprised how much they love it. At first they thought I had motive lmfao, but now they've eased up and taken up the habit of saying it back too. I think that, in this lifetime, you have to love all who are close to you because human life is fragile. I don't care how cliche that sounds. I'm not dying a person with many regrets.
I'm going to regret this post when Monday comes and the blues hit me lmao
However, it is now I realise that I very much prefer being alone lol. I always tell people NOT to wait for me, because I most likely won't wait for them, but they do it anyway out of some social obligation. It's nice of them -that I can't deny- but they better not expect the same out of me because I don't believe in social obligations. I do what I feel like doing; there's no simpler answer than that.
At times I feel like a hypocrite, however now it kind of makes sense. I think I've always been a lonely person, so I've conditioned myself to function happily alone. This isn't a whining post lol - I love life. I'm so happy right now. I always say that my feelings are isolated incidents, and I honestly believe that. With such an awesome family to go home to, nothing the outside world throws at me can truly affect me now. God's on my side too - I don't need outside people.
I've taken the habit of hugging my parents regularly, and telling them I love them. You'll be surprised how much they love it. At first they thought I had motive lmfao, but now they've eased up and taken up the habit of saying it back too. I think that, in this lifetime, you have to love all who are close to you because human life is fragile. I don't care how cliche that sounds. I'm not dying a person with many regrets.
I'm going to regret this post when Monday comes and the blues hit me lmao