It's time
I'm leaving next Wednesday. And I am more scared and sad then I have ever been about this decision. I know I will have fun. I know this is something I have to do. I know it has to be now, and it wouldn't be better any other way. I know it's time. But I love you so much and I don't want to leave you. I'm scared that these perfect weeks will fade in my mind, and I will be left without the strength to remain truly yours. I always have been, no matter what stupid decisions I made. We both didn't want to get hurt, but look where that led us. We're both more attached than ever, with too many boundaries to explore the new territory to its full potential, there are other issues of reality staring us in the face. Could I see myself with you forever? Yes. Do some things need to change? most definitely. Am I afraid that you won't get to where you need to be in order for all this to work out? I'm petrified. Do I love you? With all my heart. I haven't been able to think of much else recently. It will be hard to fill up this void when I leave... for me and for you. Can we be strong together? We'll see.