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I remember when i used to be someone. Everyone new my name. Now I get blank stares on the pool deck, and looks when the coaches greet me with great familiarity. I've been on the team for 12 years. Waynesborough was my life. And now I'm fadding away and feel out of place and time. I'm no longer the star swimmer. Fucking shoulder. But I do feel good about my times tonight for not having practiced in a long while. I feel good about the people who still remember my name. I don't feel good when they wonder what happened and why I'm not as fast. I don't feel good when some of the kids are surprised to find out that I'm still swimming. I do feel good when they're excited about my presence and greet me with hugs. This is my last year swimming for Waynesborough, and it's making me sad. It's time for me to move on, but gosh I'm going to miss it. I already miss the bundle of enthusiasm that used to rage out of my body. But things change and people grow up. I've grown up. But some things are still the same, even better. Brian and I get each other, on more than one level now. We've been through a lot together. He has been my coach for 12 years. That's a long time to know someone. I'm going to miss him so much and miss the hugs even more. We have a special connection and share deep feelings. I will always come back to see meets. I hope. I will come back to see him, and the team. Everyone is getting bigger and older. The little boys are growing into studs, and the girls are even shooting up above me in height. Brit is swimming on the team. It's great to have family support. Hopefully she'll carry the swimmer blood. We beat HVCC tonight! We soundly beat them by 12 points. I'm very proud of the team and the hard work of the coaches. I'm proud to be a part of the team and very lucky. I will be sad when this stage of my life is over. Waynesborough was my second home. I'm saying goodbye to too many places this summer.