It is all right, aibou. I am sorry that I dragged you into this in a way that was neither... wise nor very comfortable judging from our.. your.. those who I thought were friends. Everything is going to be just fine, so in the meantime, you can finish up some of that homework, mmkay?
Hmm? No aibou, it is not your fault. I went about things the wrong way, and I have faith in the judge and the gods to make the right decision. Do not worry... everything is going to be all right, I promise you.
I can stay, aibou. I have these packing lists and invoices to sort through. We can both use the computer downstairs if you need Internet access for your homework.
*a flood of worry and fear flows through the link*
//Everyone is so angry and hateful and I don't know what to do I don't even know what to think and I don't want to lose my friends but I want to do what's right and I'm so worried!!//
*starts stroking his hair in soothing, calm motions*
*keeps his own emotions carefully from filtering through the link*
//Aibou, do not worry, please. It is going to be fine. Have faith. I am not the one to tell you what to think, and the anger and hatred is mostly directed at me. I can deal with that, but whoever takes out his or her frustration on you, will have to deal with me. Like I said, I am sorry, aibou...//
Shh....
And I never knew that everyone was so eager to turn their backs to me, after all we have been through...
*continues stroking his hair, fingers ruffling and sifting through the strands*
//I know, aibou. It will be okay... shhh... it will be all right again. Give it some time... the emotions are a little raw at the moment. All in due time... shh, my darling husband..//
*subconsciously returns the grip, fingers pressing him closer*
I talked to Mahaado-san... //And I still don't understand why everyone is so mad at you... I believe that you're doing it for Sarim-chan's sake... but why? Why?//
//I am the first to admit that I do not want the baby to be with mou hitori no Malik. He might love his son, but we all know that he is not exactly father material. I have filed an appeal to enlist ourselves as an adoptive family in case it should be necessary- if Shizuka-chan or mou hitori no Malik weren't assigned the baby. That is all... I testified for a judge and jury that I could offer the baby a warm family and a good home should his parents not meet the requirements for custody. I want him to go to Shizuka-chan first and foremost... but apparently, because the judge decided that both of them were unfit at the moment, everybody thinks that I used some kind of leverage to make the judge favor me. Seeing as I am lying, selfish, never should be a father, do not care for anyone or anything as I have been accused of, I never thought I was so much intimidating that no one dared to talk to me about that.//
*bitterness on his face before forcing himself to relax again* Shh, aibou...
//I just want everything to be ok between you, me, and that Sarim-chan is taken care of... You're not selfish or anything, mou hitori no boku! You're always trying to take care of me, and you make me stronger! I love you, so please don't say stuff like that!//
Come... let's sit down. *leads Yuugi over to the couch, gently sitting him down*
//Aibou.. I was repeating what everyone said about me. I never realized people percieved me like that, as no one ever has told me or showed any indication of it... but as soon as the judge's decision was made, not only did everyone turn their back on me, but were also quick to judge with grievous comments. I am sorry that I dragged you down with this. I will make it all right, that is a promise... I do anything for you, aibou.. I love you.//
*starts stroking his hair again* Shhh... it is going to be all right... shh...
//I hate this... I don't want any of it... Don't want people to be upset at each other... I just want everyone to be happy... I just want everyone to be happy...//
*petting begins to soothe him* //I don't want to lose our friends... and I don't want to lose you... Love you so much...//
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*louder, fiddling slightly* Stay with me until I'm done? Talk to me, please? Don't shut me out...
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I can stay, aibou. I have these packing lists and invoices to sort through. We can both use the computer downstairs if you need Internet access for your homework.
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Please... I love you... And... and even if... if you might have done things the wrong way, I still love you. Forever and ever. Just don't leave me...
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Aibou, I would never leave you. I love you... you are my water, my air, my life. I will love you forever and ever...
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*a flood of worry and fear flows through the link*
//Everyone is so angry and hateful and I don't know what to do I don't even know what to think and I don't want to lose my friends but I want to do what's right and I'm so worried!!//
*buries his face in Atemu's shirt*
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*keeps his own emotions carefully from filtering through the link*
//Aibou, do not worry, please. It is going to be fine. Have faith. I am not the one to tell you what to think, and the anger and hatred is mostly directed at me. I can deal with that, but whoever takes out his or her frustration on you, will have to deal with me. Like I said, I am sorry, aibou...//
Shh....
And I never knew that everyone was so eager to turn their backs to me, after all we have been through...
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//Just want everything to be ok... just want everything to be ok...//
*fingers tighten their grip, leans into Atemu for support*
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//I know, aibou. It will be okay... shhh... it will be all right again. Give it some time... the emotions are a little raw at the moment. All in due time... shh, my darling husband..//
*subconsciously returns the grip, fingers pressing him closer*
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I talked to Mahaado-san... //And I still don't understand why everyone is so mad at you... I believe that you're doing it for Sarim-chan's sake... but why? Why?//
*sobs softly*
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//I am the first to admit that I do not want the baby to be with mou hitori no Malik. He might love his son, but we all know that he is not exactly father material. I have filed an appeal to enlist ourselves as an adoptive family in case it should be necessary- if Shizuka-chan or mou hitori no Malik weren't assigned the baby. That is all... I testified for a judge and jury that I could offer the baby a warm family and a good home should his parents not meet the requirements for custody. I want him to go to Shizuka-chan first and foremost... but apparently, because the judge decided that both of them were unfit at the moment, everybody thinks that I used some kind of leverage to make the judge favor me. Seeing as I am lying, selfish, never should be a father, do not care for anyone or anything as I have been accused of, I never thought I was so much intimidating that no one dared to talk to me about that.//
*bitterness on his face before forcing himself to relax again* Shh, aibou...
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*grip tightens again, knees buckling*
//Please... please...//
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//Aibou.. I was repeating what everyone said about me. I never realized people percieved me like that, as no one ever has told me or showed any indication of it... but as soon as the judge's decision was made, not only did everyone turn their back on me, but were also quick to judge with grievous comments. I am sorry that I dragged you down with this. I will make it all right, that is a promise... I do anything for you, aibou.. I love you.//
*starts stroking his hair again* Shhh... it is going to be all right... shh...
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*fingers grip Atemu's shirt still*
//I hate this... I don't want any of it... Don't want people to be upset at each other... I just want everyone to be happy... I just want everyone to be happy...//
*petting begins to soothe him* //I don't want to lose our friends... and I don't want to lose you... Love you so much...//
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//I know, aibou.. I am sorry... I will make it up to you, I promise. I want you to be happy. I love you so much...//
*holds him close, still petting and touching him*
//You will never lose me, aibou. I cannot live without you.//
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*soothing petting helping him*
*a wave of exhaustion flows through the link*
//Just want... I... love you...//
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