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im sitting here in geometry, and im listening to konstatine, by something corporate. and suddenly, im question everything, and everyone that i have taken for granted. i think somthing is going wrong with my brother. i think hes depressed again, and i love him so much. i hate it when hes unhappy. i think hes missing work, and if he does he cant pay rent..he dropped outta school and i thought he was gonna go back but..now it doesnt seem likely. i havent seen him for so long..and when i do its not how it was when i was younger. we used to connect. but we dont anymore. and it makes me so sad. i remember when i was really little, in north carolina, i would look up to him so much...even when he was mean. i just learned hes coming for dinner. that helps. on a different note: i went over to lauras house, and B and fran and lisa...were there...and it was really fun, we were watching mtv and eating and laughing. whatever i was having fun. but then i hadda leave...at like 5:45..and lisa came with me...and then b was like hey would u pput my bag in my locker? so we took her bag but it turned out she gave us the wrong combination but thats kinda besides the point. then so i called amandas cell...to get the number, and no one answered, and emilias fone was off so i ran into the center and asked pollock if he had the directory and he like wouldnt let me touch it but whatever and i called lauras house..and her mom answered...and i said, hi this is nora is laura there? and she was like umm uh..sure. and then laura was crying and i didnt know what happened. so me an lisa like..raced down the stairs and met b and fran at 88 and cpw. b was crying and laura was like..trying to hold herself together..and it took awhile to get a straight answer out of any of them for a minute. but i finally understtood what had happened. but i dont want to say anything until i hear what laura says...im just really sorry that this happened...and if anyone needs to talk...im here, and so is lisa.