probably going to be a lengthy entry.
2006 is over. and i'm in shock. what a year. if i could choose one word to describe 2006 it would be change. so so so much change. good change. bad change. important change.
so much has happened to me this past year. i think i hit rock bottom. i don't know if i could have possibly felt any worse. i was acting really immature. but through it all i feel more independent and more mature. i've never been so hurt or cried so much my whole life, but i did, and what's done is done. i could only move forward. i still want to believe that everything happens for a reason. and honestly, i'm still healing. it's going to take me a long time to heal. and blah blah blah people can say whatever they want, but that's the way it is. i'm still angry and hurt and struggling with why things had to end the way they did. and that'll continue into 2007.
i lost my grandmother in 2006. that made the year pretty damn memorable. but my friends were all so great and supported me so strongly through it, as well as having one of the best families on earth.
i didn't really lose any friends, which i'm happy to report. well, maybe one. i don't know. i gained a lot though, which makes me so happy. my bayonne girls, who i love and miss very much. and all the people at rowan. and although they're not really friend friends, they're good people who i know i'll be seeing in the future and that excites me.
i got to experience the super professional, snooty world of fine dining at good ol' David Drakes. I found that if teaching doesn't work out, I'm a damn good hostess and I can kiss people's asses. great for me.
i have a lot of good and bad memories from this year. i'm not sure what outweighs the other. and that's a little sad. i partied. danced. went to virginia on one of the most memorable vacations of my life. went to florida. got to know how awesome Santino is. dyed my hair to the closest color to my natural hair color that i've seen in years. saw AFI 4 times in one year. fucked up a relationship. hell, maybe two. i did really well in biology. saw the best movie ever (snakes on a plane). starred in a teemurder music video. had a falling out with all of my friends. skinny dipped. cried, screamed, dropped entirely way too many f-bombs. experienced the winfield fair for the first time. sunsets. oh, that beautiful sunset. you know which one i'm talking about. went to central park for the first time. and queens. lost my grandmother. took a summer class. gained weight. lost it. gained it. and lost it. and realized my drinking tolerance is still that of a 13 year olds.
i'm not trying to be all mopey, because i'm really not feeling that way, but despite all of the great things that happened in 2006, the bad things will probably always be most prominent in my memory. and that really sucks.
2007...it's gonna be tough year. school wise, relationship wise. everything. i can tell this is really going to be a year where i'm forced to grow up.
::poof::
so much has happened to me this past year. i think i hit rock bottom. i don't know if i could have possibly felt any worse. i was acting really immature. but through it all i feel more independent and more mature. i've never been so hurt or cried so much my whole life, but i did, and what's done is done. i could only move forward. i still want to believe that everything happens for a reason. and honestly, i'm still healing. it's going to take me a long time to heal. and blah blah blah people can say whatever they want, but that's the way it is. i'm still angry and hurt and struggling with why things had to end the way they did. and that'll continue into 2007.
i lost my grandmother in 2006. that made the year pretty damn memorable. but my friends were all so great and supported me so strongly through it, as well as having one of the best families on earth.
i didn't really lose any friends, which i'm happy to report. well, maybe one. i don't know. i gained a lot though, which makes me so happy. my bayonne girls, who i love and miss very much. and all the people at rowan. and although they're not really friend friends, they're good people who i know i'll be seeing in the future and that excites me.
i got to experience the super professional, snooty world of fine dining at good ol' David Drakes. I found that if teaching doesn't work out, I'm a damn good hostess and I can kiss people's asses. great for me.
i have a lot of good and bad memories from this year. i'm not sure what outweighs the other. and that's a little sad. i partied. danced. went to virginia on one of the most memorable vacations of my life. went to florida. got to know how awesome Santino is. dyed my hair to the closest color to my natural hair color that i've seen in years. saw AFI 4 times in one year. fucked up a relationship. hell, maybe two. i did really well in biology. saw the best movie ever (snakes on a plane). starred in a teemurder music video. had a falling out with all of my friends. skinny dipped. cried, screamed, dropped entirely way too many f-bombs. experienced the winfield fair for the first time. sunsets. oh, that beautiful sunset. you know which one i'm talking about. went to central park for the first time. and queens. lost my grandmother. took a summer class. gained weight. lost it. gained it. and lost it. and realized my drinking tolerance is still that of a 13 year olds.
i'm not trying to be all mopey, because i'm really not feeling that way, but despite all of the great things that happened in 2006, the bad things will probably always be most prominent in my memory. and that really sucks.
2007...it's gonna be tough year. school wise, relationship wise. everything. i can tell this is really going to be a year where i'm forced to grow up.
::poof::