sing like noone's lsitening
I just read washu's enrtry about why she needs to create.
-sweetie you have no idea how lucky you are.
I wish I could create, oh I wish soooo hard. But for some odd reason it is hard for me to even find the time. Yes I doodle in class, but does that lead to further inspiration? no. it leads to me missing notes and then fucking up on the test. then i get mad at myself for being distracted. If i were able to actually sit down and draw I believe i wouldn't have to doodle in class. but i can't sit down and draw anymore as soon as I do...i have to go to work, i have to go to class, i have to do chores for my folks, i hvae to pay bills, i have to go shopping, or I have to (well not have) spend some time with brad. all these things are detriments to my creation process. I want to write my poetry, I want to draw all the ideas i have for comics, i want to paint, I want to sew, i want to take pictures, i want so much to do with all different kinds of art. I wish i had time, because washu is correct. if one who is driven to create does not create their head explodes. it's more like something fragile in the mind kind of breaks and a little peice of soul or mind or heart just dies. It gets hard to concentrate and you wonder why you're doing everything that you're doing. I'm doing this because i want art in my future. I want to teach others the joy of creating and i want to create for myself. but right now i can't. i want to soo desparately. i hate having an idea then not being able to even try it. it makes my head hurt bad. I can't wait until this part of my journey is over. then i can actually do what i want. until then i guess that ache will never go away.
-sweetie you have no idea how lucky you are.
I wish I could create, oh I wish soooo hard. But for some odd reason it is hard for me to even find the time. Yes I doodle in class, but does that lead to further inspiration? no. it leads to me missing notes and then fucking up on the test. then i get mad at myself for being distracted. If i were able to actually sit down and draw I believe i wouldn't have to doodle in class. but i can't sit down and draw anymore as soon as I do...i have to go to work, i have to go to class, i have to do chores for my folks, i hvae to pay bills, i have to go shopping, or I have to (well not have) spend some time with brad. all these things are detriments to my creation process. I want to write my poetry, I want to draw all the ideas i have for comics, i want to paint, I want to sew, i want to take pictures, i want so much to do with all different kinds of art. I wish i had time, because washu is correct. if one who is driven to create does not create their head explodes. it's more like something fragile in the mind kind of breaks and a little peice of soul or mind or heart just dies. It gets hard to concentrate and you wonder why you're doing everything that you're doing. I'm doing this because i want art in my future. I want to teach others the joy of creating and i want to create for myself. but right now i can't. i want to soo desparately. i hate having an idea then not being able to even try it. it makes my head hurt bad. I can't wait until this part of my journey is over. then i can actually do what i want. until then i guess that ache will never go away.