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Sometimes in the evenings I come back here and feel really lonely. I have such a beautiful life and things always seem to work out one way or another. It's easiest to feel alone when there are lots of people around who have nothing to do with you, so that you're removed from and have no part in the bustle. I wish... I wish.... Is that cryptic enough for you? You have to have very good eyesight to read between THOSE lines. Maybe if I start sleeping now and wake up when it's time to go to China... that might do the trick. Maybe if someone comes and holds me, it doesn't even have to be that long, just a quality moment of human contact, eye contact, soul contact.