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Ok so lets just start out with the Pamela talk, because my journal always has her in it. We are talking again. Tried to make her hate me so I could hate her but I can't and she can't. That didn't work. I miss her and I glad I failed at the retarded plan. I am so desperate it seems these days to figure this out. I don't know anymore about her, me, and us... so confused I just give up I swear.
Mom didn't wake me up for work this morning so I missed a whole day. Instead I spent the whole day with Angela, yay!!. After spending most of the day on my ass at her house, we went to Outback and got dinner. Then we went shopping at this outlet mall. Got some shorts at Pac Sun, then we went to Best Buy. Got a few techno CDs and some camera accesories. We then made a b-line for the Florida Mall, but it was closed so instead we went to the Adult store. That was fun! Angela go a nice toy, Mmm got me excited... :)
Angela stole one of my notebooks and read a bunch of poems I wrote ABOUT her. She said they were 'cute' but I was so so so embarrased. Not like she doesn't know I've had the biggest freaking crush on her for 9 years! We have been getting along great, spending alot of time together. She has a boyfriend now... :( But hes cool I like him, and I've outlasted many o'boyfriends so I am not worried. Angela keeps talking about us moving down south somewhere or Hawaii. Would be nice. I need to get away from everything around here. Sometimes I think I just need to get away from Pamela. I don't want to at all, really... shes what I want. But I am not what she wants. Then again, sometimes I just don't understand. *shrugs* Who knows. I'm usually wrong anyways so no doubt I am totally wrong here too.
Welp later yo!
Mom didn't wake me up for work this morning so I missed a whole day. Instead I spent the whole day with Angela, yay!!. After spending most of the day on my ass at her house, we went to Outback and got dinner. Then we went shopping at this outlet mall. Got some shorts at Pac Sun, then we went to Best Buy. Got a few techno CDs and some camera accesories. We then made a b-line for the Florida Mall, but it was closed so instead we went to the Adult store. That was fun! Angela go a nice toy, Mmm got me excited... :)
Angela stole one of my notebooks and read a bunch of poems I wrote ABOUT her. She said they were 'cute' but I was so so so embarrased. Not like she doesn't know I've had the biggest freaking crush on her for 9 years! We have been getting along great, spending alot of time together. She has a boyfriend now... :( But hes cool I like him, and I've outlasted many o'boyfriends so I am not worried. Angela keeps talking about us moving down south somewhere or Hawaii. Would be nice. I need to get away from everything around here. Sometimes I think I just need to get away from Pamela. I don't want to at all, really... shes what I want. But I am not what she wants. Then again, sometimes I just don't understand. *shrugs* Who knows. I'm usually wrong anyways so no doubt I am totally wrong here too.
Welp later yo!