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so even though nobody reads this, i am still going to write because i need to vent because i feel like crap.
ever since i started spring quarter at my community college for running start i have felt so left out and i noticed that i don't have any friends at all anymore. i have people who i talk to and who i wish i was better friends with, but now that i have a bf PLUS a job that likes to schedule me for 36 hrs a week (wtf i do NOT work full time) i can't even make an attempt to make friends who are slipping away better friends. i miss being friends with girls and being all mischevious and not having to worry about what a guy thinks or if he secretly wants to mack on me or whatever. i want to have a best friend so bad but i don't have one and i haven't had one for a long time and it makes me sad. i get sad not jealous that i am not friends with people as well as we used to be and they have found cooler better friends than me. it makes me feel bad, but i have no time, and i don't know how to talk about it to them.
ever since i started spring quarter at my community college for running start i have felt so left out and i noticed that i don't have any friends at all anymore. i have people who i talk to and who i wish i was better friends with, but now that i have a bf PLUS a job that likes to schedule me for 36 hrs a week (wtf i do NOT work full time) i can't even make an attempt to make friends who are slipping away better friends. i miss being friends with girls and being all mischevious and not having to worry about what a guy thinks or if he secretly wants to mack on me or whatever. i want to have a best friend so bad but i don't have one and i haven't had one for a long time and it makes me sad. i get sad not jealous that i am not friends with people as well as we used to be and they have found cooler better friends than me. it makes me feel bad, but i have no time, and i don't know how to talk about it to them.