Comments | putali: There's always free cheddar in a mousetrap

putali

There's always free cheddar in a mousetrap

Jul 29, 2004 14:36

Four years ago I had a miscarriage. Actually, I didn’t miscarry, per se. The baby died at 12 weeks but I didn’t know it until four weeks later, and only then because the ultrasound discovered it to be true. My uterus had continued to grow, inexplicably. All the symptoms were still there. But baby? Dead. All that time. She just didn’t want to let go ( Read more... )

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Yay! cheekygremlin July 30 2004, 01:43:08 UTC

You wrote about it! Finally! Yay!! Now _I_ can write about it!! *Happy Dance Happy Dance!*

As for getting all weird if things go wrong. I couldn't possibly be more tactless and wierd than last time.

So happy you wrote about it.

Sorry it sucks ass.
I am still jealous as all hell though.

Re: Yay! hussnfussn July 30 2004, 14:21:01 UTC

WHOO HOOOOOO!!!! I am so incredibly jazzed for you! Although not so much jealous..jesus that is a lot to deal with, I stand by my pride in being of the male gender. But I know that (in the short time I have gotten to know you) that you would be an EXCELLENT mother! I do however, have my reservations about the CRAZY aunt they are going to have..lol =) And regarding big breasts...at least your children will be well fed?? haha ( ... )

Re: Yay! putali August 2 2004, 18:21:14 UTC

Clearly you are an asute observer of both excellence and craziness! ;-) Thanks for the jazzy enthusiasm! (And vowed optimism).

Here is said poem. Probably too personal to post, yeah, but you're talking to someone who has an online journal. So...

Tess (08/99-12/99)

While you were here
old wounds were patched
and light was found
in rootless dark.
Our cord reached out
beyond this bond to gather
tangled knots of sorrow -
unraveled them
with happy circumstance
and tied a bow.

But you withdrew,
your tiny veins without a pulse,
and left me blank --
replaced the bow with
brand new knots to smooth,
fresh wounds to mend,
and darkness,
thick, unsteady.

How much longer
would you have clung,
curled and lifeless,
pale shadow
of my certain expectation?

And if I begged,
undid all knots,
would you return?

Re: Yay! hussnfussn August 2 2004, 19:02:02 UTC

thank you very much for posting this. that really means a lot to share that. I cannot even begin to imagine the state you were in when it was composed. I truly hope you have never have to return to that state...no one should have to go through that.

diverged August 2 2004, 03:20:42 UTC

Oh wow wow wow! I haven't read the whole post yet! You're pregnant again! This will so make up for me thinking you had a kid or two while I wasn't paying attention!

Ahem. I'll read more...