i need to vent.

[put_uporshutup]

So I've come to realize some things the past couple weeks and the whole situation is just really bumming me out. This summer I've decided that I need to be more trusting of people and just live life, to not be so wound up into one thing that I lose myself. I'm only sixteen, I shouldn't feel like I'm trapped, all I want is just a free spirit(I don't care how much of a hippie I sound like), to live in the moment but I'm finding that more difficult everyday. There is one major influence on all of that and he doesn't even realize what he's doing. I shouldn't have to check up with him every six hours for him to feel secure, all I want is for this boy to trust me. Don't get me wrong, I love him to death and I can't blame him because I know that I started this whole psycho/paranoid thing, but I've grown out of it, I've come to realize that that's no way to live and all it does is stress me out, so I let go. Now he needs to learn how but he just can't. I just need a simple solution but I doubt that it will just fall into my hands, so I'm going to continue to work on it but I don't know how much longer I can hold out.

/rant.

I need some new friends, on livejournal or in real life.
I need something new.