gotta knuckle down, just be ok with this.

[pussyworshipnow]

i fucked up so many drinks today.

i couldnt remember what i was doing when i went to go do stuff.

it was just all bad.

i have two dates this week.

and i work hella.

i want to go the a club thursday.

i really want to go to popscene.

coz we didnt get to go thursday, but pizza was damn good.

this time of year makes me think of her.

i kinda miss her. not really but kinda.

and definitely not like that.

just in a way that we had fun.

i wish she could see me how i am now.
this is how i was supposed to be.

i miss a lot of people.

i miss being comfortble.

everything is so uncomfortable and new.
i just want something consistent.

i want to know someone is genuine.

but honestly, as much as i say this, i dont want this.

sometimes when i look at her im disgusted by what i see.

and you are so lame
you always disappoint me
it's kinda like our running joke
but it's really not funny
i just want you to live up to
the image of you i create
i see you and i'm so unsatisfied
i see you and i dilate