Its been a long time.
Since I've written on this thing. My time has been spent working...partying...lots of work. Now i've been on vacation for a couple weeks for Philips trip here. It's had its ups and downs. I prefer visiting Germany and seeing him there...then here. It's been stressful. I want to leave my job...perhaps move away. Theres a lot of differences between him and my friends....I don't think he's used to gay men and women in the hair industry so much. That's just the field i work in...i could care less bout their sexual orientation...as long as they treat me with respect im fine....and i keep trying to convey that to him. I've been very open...or atleast i try to be...to philips lifestyle. Lifestyle i mean attitude bout life...and shit like that. I guess spending so much time with one another....most things about a person...ideas, quirks, fucking behaviors...can seem intolerable...but we love eachother and for the most part it's enjoyable....I don't usually write about things i love....writings a form of venting for me...when i don't feel like speaking...or speaking gets no where....and then theres therapy. I took a two week vacation from it...and i feel withdrawal. I feel like I need a switch on medication or something. I can be bitchy no doubt...but I am not always at fault for negative energy in the air. I do need a change...some change...I have no idea what.