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S'up everyone.
I don't even think anyone reads this anymore, but who the fuck cares, really? ahah.
Still in Toronto, still having a surpisingly good time. I haven't cried or had any emotional breakdowns or anything. ~*shock*~ I am on a "cleansing" day now, so I have to drink this like really nasty juice all day, I managed to get half an apple and some walnuts too, so now I'm not feeling too bad. I still can't believe I agreed to it, I might even do it when I get back to Halifax just cuz it's so goddamn healthy and I've been treating my body like shit as of late and gaining weight and all that shit, so who knows what's gonna happen, ahaha.
Hung out with my Great Aunt tuesday nite, spent the nite at her place and then went out shopping with her. I can't believe that she was born in 1920 and still can manage on her own, we took the bus and everything, went shopping (she had to rest a bit, but still) and then took the bus back. She smoked for 60 years too, so that gives me hope for the future, lol.
The whole experience just makes me feel terrible about getting old. I just really don't wanna get old. Like, my Grandfather is really sick now and needs constant care, had some mini-strokes and all that. I went through this with my Grandmother almost 4 years ago, but it just happened more suddenly with her, she was getting worse and then had to go to the hospital and then she passed away pretty quickly after that, it was terrible to watch but it happened faster, you know? I don't know how I want to go. I know it's totally morbid, but I wanna go quick and not waste away. I don't want my family to have to watch me die, to know that your body is totally breaking down...it would just suck, you know? I am being so fucking depressing, I realize, but it's something to think about. You really don't have any control over it, but I guess if I still knew what was going on I would probably overdose myself on meds cuz I just don't wanna go down that route. Fuck. aha. Enough about that shit.
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I went to this meeting with Wendy yesterday about this whole cleansing diet thing that she's on (and I guess I'm kinda on now too) and there was a women there with the best purse ever. I asked her where she got it and I'm going out with Wendy tomorrow to get it. ahah. Like I need more but I feel like I do, ahah. I have spent the biggest amount of time with Wendy on this trip. My Dad has been working non-stop and is doing all the PR for this politician guy so that's taking up a lot of his time. I actually am getting along really well with Wendy, we're like friends or something. It's good, I think. We even went to Yoga together today, who knew I would go, ahaha.
Anyways this is like ridiculously long, so that'sn it for now.
I don't even think anyone reads this anymore, but who the fuck cares, really? ahah.
Still in Toronto, still having a surpisingly good time. I haven't cried or had any emotional breakdowns or anything. ~*shock*~ I am on a "cleansing" day now, so I have to drink this like really nasty juice all day, I managed to get half an apple and some walnuts too, so now I'm not feeling too bad. I still can't believe I agreed to it, I might even do it when I get back to Halifax just cuz it's so goddamn healthy and I've been treating my body like shit as of late and gaining weight and all that shit, so who knows what's gonna happen, ahaha.
Hung out with my Great Aunt tuesday nite, spent the nite at her place and then went out shopping with her. I can't believe that she was born in 1920 and still can manage on her own, we took the bus and everything, went shopping (she had to rest a bit, but still) and then took the bus back. She smoked for 60 years too, so that gives me hope for the future, lol.
The whole experience just makes me feel terrible about getting old. I just really don't wanna get old. Like, my Grandfather is really sick now and needs constant care, had some mini-strokes and all that. I went through this with my Grandmother almost 4 years ago, but it just happened more suddenly with her, she was getting worse and then had to go to the hospital and then she passed away pretty quickly after that, it was terrible to watch but it happened faster, you know? I don't know how I want to go. I know it's totally morbid, but I wanna go quick and not waste away. I don't want my family to have to watch me die, to know that your body is totally breaking down...it would just suck, you know? I am being so fucking depressing, I realize, but it's something to think about. You really don't have any control over it, but I guess if I still knew what was going on I would probably overdose myself on meds cuz I just don't wanna go down that route. Fuck. aha. Enough about that shit.
***New Topic***
I went to this meeting with Wendy yesterday about this whole cleansing diet thing that she's on (and I guess I'm kinda on now too) and there was a women there with the best purse ever. I asked her where she got it and I'm going out with Wendy tomorrow to get it. ahah. Like I need more but I feel like I do, ahah. I have spent the biggest amount of time with Wendy on this trip. My Dad has been working non-stop and is doing all the PR for this politician guy so that's taking up a lot of his time. I actually am getting along really well with Wendy, we're like friends or something. It's good, I think. We even went to Yoga together today, who knew I would go, ahaha.
Anyways this is like ridiculously long, so that'sn it for now.