In the Velvet Darkness . . .
Things have been crazy for me lately. All my friends are suddenly wanting to do things with me and it's awesome. I love it. I'm always doing something and on the phone with someone and I barely have time for myself. But I'd rather be with friends and having fun. I am feeling so much for Anthony. It feels comfortable and a lot of my insecurities and doubts going into this have gone away. A lot is due to my chat with Amber and let me know that some of the things I'm going through right now, or little things about Anthony that kind of disappoint me will get better in time. It was the sign I needed that I should stay with him. I do care about him a lot and I think he would be a great person to spend forever with, but I'm not in a hurry to get to forever. I want to take things slow and let things evolve on their own. I want to live now instead of in the future . . . if that makes any sense. So the friend is being a dick to Anthony. I told ANthony about it one night last week cause he was trying to reassure me that he wasn't cheating on me with his ex (long story) and since he was being so honest with me I felt compelled to be honest with him. He thanked me for telling him and seemed alright with it. As alright as one can be when they find out their friend has made the moves on his girlfriend. So I ask him not to say anything about it so of course later that night he tells the friends fiancees' mom with him and our friend Joe right there and the friend grabs a knife and starts to go for Anthony but luckily Joe stopped him and he's just been a dick ever since. Of course he's still nice to me.
Thanks Leesie for your advice and congrats on the test. I might have to take it soon. . . yeah . . . sometimes it just happens. 5 times. lol. I think I know where the Brittany is. It seems like a really nice neighboorhood and that's what I want. At least a nice neighborhood that I can afford. We should find out the info about it. And a benefit of that is that it's close to Edison. I don't know if you remember, but in 8th grade we used to plan what it would be like living together. We plotted out wallpaper and decorations. Isn't it funny?! . . and I enjoyed spending the day with you even if I was your personal shopping assistant ;-P It's what I do!!!
I must go. I have an appointment for a pedicure tomorrow given to me by my grandma then I'm going to check out about working at a day care with amber, and then I'll be spending the day with ANthony *sigh* yes, I'm starting to feel that heart-skipping a beat comfort and happiness with him and I am the happiest I've been in so long . . . It is so nice . . .
~*~ Crystal ~*~
"Life isn't about the amount of breaths you take, It's about the moments that take your breath away"
Thanks Leesie for your advice and congrats on the test. I might have to take it soon. . . yeah . . . sometimes it just happens. 5 times. lol. I think I know where the Brittany is. It seems like a really nice neighboorhood and that's what I want. At least a nice neighborhood that I can afford. We should find out the info about it. And a benefit of that is that it's close to Edison. I don't know if you remember, but in 8th grade we used to plan what it would be like living together. We plotted out wallpaper and decorations. Isn't it funny?! . . and I enjoyed spending the day with you even if I was your personal shopping assistant ;-P It's what I do!!!
I must go. I have an appointment for a pedicure tomorrow given to me by my grandma then I'm going to check out about working at a day care with amber, and then I'll be spending the day with ANthony *sigh* yes, I'm starting to feel that heart-skipping a beat comfort and happiness with him and I am the happiest I've been in so long . . . It is so nice . . .
~*~ Crystal ~*~
"Life isn't about the amount of breaths you take, It's about the moments that take your breath away"