I'm Not Gonna Crack!
Okay... I really screwed up friday. Casey and Amanda are done and i think i made matters worse with a note that i gave Emily. It is insane. Casey is really pissed.
The note was of course about casey and amanda. Emily asked me a question so i wrote her a HUGE note in an attempt to answer that question. Then she wrote me back so i wrote her another HUGE note and then she wrote me back once more and that was all we had time for. I felt really bad for amanda so i consequently took her side... i don't like it when people cry, it makes me sad and depressed.
So i blamed tara. Ha, what a stupid idea that was. I said in the note that amanda read and gave to rob to read who in turn called and told casey about was, "tara likes him and has been working her way with him and i think he is falling for it. He for some reason likes her even though he says he doesn't and that could play a part in this whole mess."
Rob and casey called me and started asking me alot of questions which i answered truthfully, but casey eventually got to pissed and irritated to listen and reason out things. I tried to tell him that i said the whole situation was none of my business but me and emily got bored in german class and decided to talk about the topic. I gave my observation and my opinion on the matter though it may be wrong.
I also said a crap load more on my other note which was even more reason to what i said in the first one. It made the first one sound better, i guess. But to understand what i really meant you would have to read both notes. But casey failed to even hear me say that. He just went off on some huge stupid pointless escapade of "oh yeah and tara is over here and i am doing her up the butt right now." and "if you ever come over dane i'll beat you with a bat." my question is how then am i going to give you the four, not three, books back?
Rob, if you think something is not right, but it was in a note that was NONE OF YOUR BUSINESS anyway, don't go telling people about it. i didn't even want amanda to read it. It was between me and emily and only me and emily. That really made me mad that you told casey because it was about him and it could be looked at as kinda rude, mean, or anything else you want to label it as even though it was just stupid gossip that me and emily randomly come up with.
on another note: i am sorry casey. I am sorry that you found out. I am sorry for assuming that you liked tara. i am sorry for getting into something that is should have stayed out of. I am sorry for being "bleep"in' there. Hope you are happy.
In fourth block maria (chris boysha's ex) came in and we hung out. Then before she left she just wanted to tell me that i was like cool and hot or something on those lines which really disappointed me because i am not and i don't want to be! The "cool and hot" dudes are stuck up panzees who need more blood pumping through there other head. I hate them and they all need to die.
I feel horrible and sick to my stomach. I am going to listen to more nirvana. I hope everyone has a wonderful "bleep"in' weekend while i sit here and debate whether i should go jump off a bridge or rape someone!
I don't like you much, anyway. i hate being misunderstood, it gets really old after 13 years of it. I hate people who try to bring me down by doing and/or saying intentionally mean crap just because they don't like me or something. MAybe if you just got to know me and got to understand me it would be different. But you don't even try to do that. I hate you. Leave me alone!
I really hope i become famous because when you all see me on tv playing some song that you really like and then notice, hey i knew that guy.... his name was enad evac or somethin. Then they'll say dane cave and you'll be all like: "OH MY GOD! WHAT WAS I THINKING WHEN I WAS A COMPLETE ASS TO HIM?" And then you'll love me because i am famous, not because you truly like me. Wouldn't that make you feel kinda stupid?
Go suck a cock.
i am sorry world for be a nice, understanding, dipshit. I fully meant everthing that i do that is nice, selfless, and understanding to be repayed by you cruel attempts to bring me down. Even though you bring me down i still try to bring you up. I said this in casey's lj, "bring me down and i'll try to bring you up." Is there something wrong with that? Well, i am going to go out of my way to be and asshole now... oh wait, almost forgot again, i have been this entire time. Thank you all and i hope you all fall from a building and die!
And i swear that i don't have a gun...
I am sorry for the people that i care about but don't care about me -which is all my "bleep"in' friends but that is beside the point- because this is not directed towards "YOU" of course. I mean... nooooooo... you guys are my "friends". SCREW YOU!!!!
The note was of course about casey and amanda. Emily asked me a question so i wrote her a HUGE note in an attempt to answer that question. Then she wrote me back so i wrote her another HUGE note and then she wrote me back once more and that was all we had time for. I felt really bad for amanda so i consequently took her side... i don't like it when people cry, it makes me sad and depressed.
So i blamed tara. Ha, what a stupid idea that was. I said in the note that amanda read and gave to rob to read who in turn called and told casey about was, "tara likes him and has been working her way with him and i think he is falling for it. He for some reason likes her even though he says he doesn't and that could play a part in this whole mess."
Rob and casey called me and started asking me alot of questions which i answered truthfully, but casey eventually got to pissed and irritated to listen and reason out things. I tried to tell him that i said the whole situation was none of my business but me and emily got bored in german class and decided to talk about the topic. I gave my observation and my opinion on the matter though it may be wrong.
I also said a crap load more on my other note which was even more reason to what i said in the first one. It made the first one sound better, i guess. But to understand what i really meant you would have to read both notes. But casey failed to even hear me say that. He just went off on some huge stupid pointless escapade of "oh yeah and tara is over here and i am doing her up the butt right now." and "if you ever come over dane i'll beat you with a bat." my question is how then am i going to give you the four, not three, books back?
Rob, if you think something is not right, but it was in a note that was NONE OF YOUR BUSINESS anyway, don't go telling people about it. i didn't even want amanda to read it. It was between me and emily and only me and emily. That really made me mad that you told casey because it was about him and it could be looked at as kinda rude, mean, or anything else you want to label it as even though it was just stupid gossip that me and emily randomly come up with.
on another note: i am sorry casey. I am sorry that you found out. I am sorry for assuming that you liked tara. i am sorry for getting into something that is should have stayed out of. I am sorry for being "bleep"in' there. Hope you are happy.
In fourth block maria (chris boysha's ex) came in and we hung out. Then before she left she just wanted to tell me that i was like cool and hot or something on those lines which really disappointed me because i am not and i don't want to be! The "cool and hot" dudes are stuck up panzees who need more blood pumping through there other head. I hate them and they all need to die.
I feel horrible and sick to my stomach. I am going to listen to more nirvana. I hope everyone has a wonderful "bleep"in' weekend while i sit here and debate whether i should go jump off a bridge or rape someone!
I don't like you much, anyway. i hate being misunderstood, it gets really old after 13 years of it. I hate people who try to bring me down by doing and/or saying intentionally mean crap just because they don't like me or something. MAybe if you just got to know me and got to understand me it would be different. But you don't even try to do that. I hate you. Leave me alone!
I really hope i become famous because when you all see me on tv playing some song that you really like and then notice, hey i knew that guy.... his name was enad evac or somethin. Then they'll say dane cave and you'll be all like: "OH MY GOD! WHAT WAS I THINKING WHEN I WAS A COMPLETE ASS TO HIM?" And then you'll love me because i am famous, not because you truly like me. Wouldn't that make you feel kinda stupid?
Go suck a cock.
i am sorry world for be a nice, understanding, dipshit. I fully meant everthing that i do that is nice, selfless, and understanding to be repayed by you cruel attempts to bring me down. Even though you bring me down i still try to bring you up. I said this in casey's lj, "bring me down and i'll try to bring you up." Is there something wrong with that? Well, i am going to go out of my way to be and asshole now... oh wait, almost forgot again, i have been this entire time. Thank you all and i hope you all fall from a building and die!
And i swear that i don't have a gun...
I am sorry for the people that i care about but don't care about me -which is all my "bleep"in' friends but that is beside the point- because this is not directed towards "YOU" of course. I mean... nooooooo... you guys are my "friends". SCREW YOU!!!!