I don't think it's working

[pussah_cat]

I have two weeks till my doctor's appointment and I don't think this stuff is working. I'm still getting euphoric and depressed.......................................................................it's too hot to write my essay at the moment so it's making me more sad. Even though I still have tomorrow I feel so disappointed in myself that it's not like, almost done right now. I think I thought that all of a sudden I'd be supercharged and so efficient. Boy, did I think wrong!
I wish my brain would stop recalling every horribly painful and/or humiliating memory I have. I don't understand why I am programmed like that.