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today i will milk my last cow. it totally hasn't sunk in, not even a little bit. i'm actually gonna get to go home dudes, can you believe that? it's just too weird, blatantly not really happening. i will now wake up from a pleasant dream and find i have 9 weeks left, or that i accidentally wrote 'forever' on my form instead of '3 months' and will never see the light of er, english day, again. i didn't know you could be in denial unwillingly, it is a very strange feeling indeed. as has been most of this whole experience. incidentally they asked me back next year, thus i am fantastic. but i think once is enough, and i never got off my arse to try and get work experience at the natural history museum so maybe i should try to do that next summer, it'll be harder to get a place in the holidays but hopefully i'll seem like a better candidate having been at uni/in london for a year. i really actually feel the most bizarre i have ever felt, like i want to sleep, dance, cry, and drink more coffee all at once. ho ho, just realised i never updated the dancing story. basically before dancing around like a mentalist, check there really is nobody watching and laughing. oh, and the reason i was happy enough to be dancing to no music and while feeding cows was because ucl have sorted my accommodtion - i am just over the road from the main uni buildings and my secret source (love you tasha) informs me the rooms may be large and have basins! and its shared, so its everything i wanted, i am so excited, i just can't wait to get started!
ok, this might be the last time i post here so just so you know, i get back on sunday the 7th, thank you all so much for being fantastic. there are some of you who (possibly unknowingly) really did keep me going, and i can't thank you enough (i will try with presents though, everyone likes reindeer yeah?). see you soon!

(haha, how jubilant frank looks)