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[pushing_to_stay]

i miss all my friends
i wanna play in a band
i love college
i miss everyone
im such a wreck and i need support
i pray and i pray
and i just wanna be happy with my life
not just little parts
the whole thing
i feel like im losing faith in so much
dreams,hopes,life,religion
dont get me wrong im not losing my faith in god just religion
it seems liek church teaches you nothing nowadays
i want to learn
i want out
everything on here is i
im so pathetically selfish
im not having a pity party
well yes i am
and im allowed to sometimes
i need a hug
i need prayer
cuz im struggling
theres so much i have bottled up that no one knows about
i hate opening myself up to people
but maybe i should more
cuz things build up and just eat me alive
if you read this congratulations
if your upset by it cuz im having a pity party
then dont comment please.
i needed this.