I WISH THIS COULD BE DIFFERENT..I WISH YOU WERE MINE
I havent felt like this for a long time. I literally feel like $#!T..
I woke up this morning thinking that nothing happened, like Im going to have a wonderful normal day like Ive been having, but then like 5 seconds later it all hit me. My heart started to hurt. I just felt like putting my hands over my face and start crying. All my emotions that I felt last night crept back to me this morning and right now my eyes feel so heavy and tired I just feel like lying in bed and falling asleep.
But you know what Im not going to question myself whether it was right or wrong. I hate doing that. It makes me feel worse than I already do by making this decision in the first place. I didnt want to do it! But fuck what was said was said and its something that had to be done cuz what was going on wasnt right nor healthy and freaking confusing. Turns out none of it was going nowhere, so I guess this is how it'll have to be unless otherwise.(whatever that may be)
Man.............................................................
:-( ....... I hate feeling this way, and I hate that im missing you.