does not compute

[push_my_buttons]

And the sedated moments of my day when I am not feeling an strong emotion one way or the other do not make up for the fact that I am unsatisfied.

I like movies
and I like kisses and car rides and working
but its as if I am at the wrong end of a funnel.

I would so much rather be full and bouncing
rather than the smooth processing end.
I don't really process much.

Now, all it takes is an extreme action to target an extreme
reaction of the forces of nature
because forces of nature is all it really is.

And maybe I'm not
going against
nature.

But it sure does feel like I've lost touch with it.
Nature doesn't mean
trees and fairies,
by the way.
It means the things that
create trees and fairies.

She's a goddess.