man I am such a baby
i always think about death. and death is the scariest thing to me. it's scary to think someone can NOT exist. like what is it like when you don't exist anymore? :\ one day it's over, and you can't control it. i know it happens to everyone but i cannot be "ok" with it. and i always cry about it. life is so unfair. you don't pick to live and then you have to deal with all the bullshit of life and all the while know you're gong to die. i hate it.