Pre Semester Jitters
OOOkay...um...ever only take one weekend to crush some things that you might have been relying on or hoping for? Well, welcome to my weekend.
Not only did i loose 2 things that were very influential and good in my life, but i believe i will lose more. the next week and 1/2 is not going to be good to me. ...Of course. It has all been due to my decisions, so therefore it is all my fault. In one situation i waited to long, another not long enough. Even in another im making bad decisions.
Hopefully this changes soon, because im going to be changing soon. Everthing ive ever hated about myself i am doing away with. Sure, this could mean a few physical things, but...im more worried about the mental. For instance, im modifying the description of the man i would want, and im going to be modifying myself. Ive always hated that im not social. I am going to fix that. Ive always hated that i have to stay home, that is definetly getting remedied. There are a few other things too, of course. Physical wise...working out, tanning?, hair?...i really dont know yet. I just need to fix myself so these problems do not happen again in my life. They cause for great dissapointments....especially when you know you had something and lose it because of your actions.
Lets just say....after this semester i will be me.
Not only did i loose 2 things that were very influential and good in my life, but i believe i will lose more. the next week and 1/2 is not going to be good to me. ...Of course. It has all been due to my decisions, so therefore it is all my fault. In one situation i waited to long, another not long enough. Even in another im making bad decisions.
Hopefully this changes soon, because im going to be changing soon. Everthing ive ever hated about myself i am doing away with. Sure, this could mean a few physical things, but...im more worried about the mental. For instance, im modifying the description of the man i would want, and im going to be modifying myself. Ive always hated that im not social. I am going to fix that. Ive always hated that i have to stay home, that is definetly getting remedied. There are a few other things too, of course. Physical wise...working out, tanning?, hair?...i really dont know yet. I just need to fix myself so these problems do not happen again in my life. They cause for great dissapointments....especially when you know you had something and lose it because of your actions.
Lets just say....after this semester i will be me.