...left out
No matter what i seem to get myself into a situation where i am the outcast.
Last night, it was at the Halloween dance for the campus residents. Michael wanted to go, so i did. (we did both have killer costumes), but i didnt know anyone there, and i didnt have a slutty costume, so, therefore, i was an outcast. I knew Michael and this girl, Susan. But both of them knew other people, and therefore hung out with them. Well, you know how people are around me, they dont really care to get to know me, so, i sat on the couch. I was going to go meet some friends, but had to do other stuff, to please other people.
Then i get left out of a thing tonight. Which, with the right people, would have been fun to go to.
I think im diggin a hole with this guy thing. Even tho we try, i dont think me and a preppy guy could work, even if he is smart. There's just to many social differences, and he also has cute girls hanging all over him all the time. And my self esteem as definetly dropped lately. I dont like that, but i cant help notice that everyone is prettier than me or better.
You guys are gonna hate me, but i have to vent.
Im ugly: and all the no you arents in the world will not change that. I just am, i face it, i just have yet to overcome it.
Im mediocre: I must be, if you were in school with me now, thats what youd think.
Im dull: So what if i dont want to go to that kegger or frat party, i dont see anything wrong with avoiding those places and stupid people.
Im annoying: I come to this conclusion from the fact that i get ditched a lot...no one seems to really care...and maybe thats how life is.
Thats just a few....please dont get on my case about this, its how i feel, and i had to get it out.
Last night, it was at the Halloween dance for the campus residents. Michael wanted to go, so i did. (we did both have killer costumes), but i didnt know anyone there, and i didnt have a slutty costume, so, therefore, i was an outcast. I knew Michael and this girl, Susan. But both of them knew other people, and therefore hung out with them. Well, you know how people are around me, they dont really care to get to know me, so, i sat on the couch. I was going to go meet some friends, but had to do other stuff, to please other people.
Then i get left out of a thing tonight. Which, with the right people, would have been fun to go to.
I think im diggin a hole with this guy thing. Even tho we try, i dont think me and a preppy guy could work, even if he is smart. There's just to many social differences, and he also has cute girls hanging all over him all the time. And my self esteem as definetly dropped lately. I dont like that, but i cant help notice that everyone is prettier than me or better.
You guys are gonna hate me, but i have to vent.
Im ugly: and all the no you arents in the world will not change that. I just am, i face it, i just have yet to overcome it.
Im mediocre: I must be, if you were in school with me now, thats what youd think.
Im dull: So what if i dont want to go to that kegger or frat party, i dont see anything wrong with avoiding those places and stupid people.
Im annoying: I come to this conclusion from the fact that i get ditched a lot...no one seems to really care...and maybe thats how life is.
Thats just a few....please dont get on my case about this, its how i feel, and i had to get it out.