Why can't dreams be real?
I was in my old house and my dad had left some pretzels out so i was like *sigh* ill get them for you. So I walk out to my livingroom and look over to see Simba and Selina purring, preening and snuggling each other. I was like whoa cause they like hate each other! I grab a camera and take a picture and I look into the camera to see how it came out and at the corner of the picture I saw Ashlee. I look up and there she is and im like whoa *squeal* hey! *glomp hugs her* so then I run over to grab the pretzel bag and Rose is with her then as im walking towards em Rachel H pops out. Im like hey you brought friends over! And she nodded and we all started to walk into the kitchen and as I did that more of my friends came out of nowhere. Robyn, Rachel G, Kay. So I turn around before walking into the pantry(that how you spell it?) to put them away and Rachel G and Kay get together. Kay does a flying leap into her arms and they shout surprise! I giggle and go in. I drop all of them on the floor mumbleing shit. Ashlee comes in and helps me clean the up. After doing that I heard Chelseas voice(some of you know her old friend) I ask her if thats her and she said no. I said I wish and she just stared at me cause she doesnt like her anymore but for that moment she looked like she missed her. It was Holly instead a girl I saw at the woodinville dance. Sounds nothing like Chelsea but yeah. She looked me over and disaproved of me. I was like what did I do? So I just brushed it off and went to hug everyone.
Its almost like Kays dream wanting Rachel back I just want everyone to get along. This whole month has been shity. Its the month of truth basicaly. Everything is smacking me in the face and laughing at me cause I can't do anything about it. I just found out that Im not invited to Robyns bday party cause I haven't been talking to her. And its so true! Im such a horriable person! She said not to get my feelings hurt but they are cause I know I haven't been good about calling anyone. But I am getting better I had Rachel H spend the night for the first time, Robyn was next on my list suprisingly but its to late cause now I have to suffer consequences. I still need to give her her xmas gift. I don't think I will do those again cause noones givin me one back so I dont want to spend my money like that anymore. I mean I don't care im not a material girl but just money wise. Only gift I got back was from Ashlee, and Lia (secert santa)
I feel like im loosing alot of friends and not just close people but people at school. I can't explain it but I don't see anything I did wrong except for not contacting people.*sigh* maybe noone should be friends with me anymore if I cant hold onto them.
Its almost like Kays dream wanting Rachel back I just want everyone to get along. This whole month has been shity. Its the month of truth basicaly. Everything is smacking me in the face and laughing at me cause I can't do anything about it. I just found out that Im not invited to Robyns bday party cause I haven't been talking to her. And its so true! Im such a horriable person! She said not to get my feelings hurt but they are cause I know I haven't been good about calling anyone. But I am getting better I had Rachel H spend the night for the first time, Robyn was next on my list suprisingly but its to late cause now I have to suffer consequences. I still need to give her her xmas gift. I don't think I will do those again cause noones givin me one back so I dont want to spend my money like that anymore. I mean I don't care im not a material girl but just money wise. Only gift I got back was from Ashlee, and Lia (secert santa)
I feel like im loosing alot of friends and not just close people but people at school. I can't explain it but I don't see anything I did wrong except for not contacting people.*sigh* maybe noone should be friends with me anymore if I cant hold onto them.