clairity... almost there....
so i've been tossing things around in my head/heart for a bit. i think that i'm slowly understanding how i feel. for a bit i thought i knew what i wanted, then i took a step back, and stopped thinking about what i wanted to be, and looked at what really was. it's not what i thought, it's not what i thought i wanted.
something has just been shaken awake in me. i'm trying to be sensible about it, but it feels like it will take alot for me to be. that crazy fluttery dizzy feeling melting over you, and you haven't had any wine? it's so nice when life feels comfortable like that.
i think i'm finally learning to pay attention to how i feel, and having the balls to do things for myself. something feels right, it's scary, but i think i trust it. i actually might trust myself...
something has just been shaken awake in me. i'm trying to be sensible about it, but it feels like it will take alot for me to be. that crazy fluttery dizzy feeling melting over you, and you haven't had any wine? it's so nice when life feels comfortable like that.
i think i'm finally learning to pay attention to how i feel, and having the balls to do things for myself. something feels right, it's scary, but i think i trust it. i actually might trust myself...