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[purpletutu89]

hmmm so i kind of remembered what i wanted to say. well... part of the reason why i forgot was because i was around a lot of people and if i really have something to say then i don't like to type it while they are all looking at my computer. and now even though i am with birken, alix, and jake, they are all looking at their computers and i feel safe. even though all of them will soon look at this.

let's face it. i'm not happy. i'm feeling really lonely right now. everyone seems to be happy and i just can't force myself to be happy with them. i mean i am on the outside but... i'm just not on the inside. i need a man damnit. that's right. i need a man.

mk... let's try my new years resolutions.

1. lose 10 pounds
2. stop trying to lie to myself (e.i. well.. i was doing my math... and it's kind of done... yes it's done)
3. do all of my homework at night (yes all of it brittany)
4. make an effort to be more receptive to things
5. stop being so stubborn (unless the circumstances are alright to me)
6. be nicer to some people
7. try to figure out what's going on with this one person. who will remain nameless.

likelyhood of them actually happening.

1. most likely
2. erm...
3. uh... ok... this will happen. (see n.y.r. #2)
4. yes, it will happen
5. please... i'm a sagittarius. we're known for being stubborn.
6. well... it depends.
7. please. it's hopeless. i have no idea what he thinks.

seeing that makes me depressed. only two are positive. jesus.