Sep 01, 2006 11:59
dear crab,
first off i love you i cant just stop loving you you are an amzing person you have the ability to make me smile whenever i see you when i was with you it was like nothing else in the whole world mattered to me we had our fair majority of fights but i just dont think i was ready or knew what you wanted until now... i felt like i needed my space and time with my friends but im realizing you just thought i was pushing you away and making you mad... that DAY (monday) we fucked up with the police bullshit... it coulda been fixed.... our love was strong enough to fix it i have never felt this way about another person in my entire life... im scared i was scared then of the outcome of us and im scared now im scared now that ill never see you again but reading her fucking blog seriously i puked after i saw it.... just thinking about you in HER arms and kissing HER instead of me feels like someone is taking my heart out and pounding it to the ground i know E was involved and i also know that you probably had no intentions doing what you did but read her fucking blog.... shes in love with you and that hurts so much all i can do now is cry and prey its all a lie but i know deep down inside its not a lie... all in all i hope someday i can see you
i love you
your grouch