Five Hundred Twenty-Five Thousand Six Hundred Minutes How Do You Measure - Measure A Year?
its so amazing how so much can change so fast... like your friends after high school all through high school your like im going to be friends with you for the rest of my life you even think these girls are going to be in your wedding but its not true yeah maybe for some people but def. not for me it almost is like since all my friends know im moving to boston there just going to stop being my friend now yeah maybe theyre smart... cut someone off whos never gunna be around but come on its really not that fair i guess it basically just hit me that im leaving and maybe it hit me because everyone is so shady around me but it sucks it almost makes me want to stay but then its like fuck you if you want me to leave that bad then peace out and fuck you too but i dont know i think it just sucks cause all you ever think about in high school is how much fun the summer after your senior year is going to be but honestly it has sucked everyone is so different now i go from having a best friend that i could talk to about anything and hang out with whenever either one of us needed to but now i dont even call and when i do she doesnt even answer or you go from having your other best friend who is so much like you and you guys always have fun together and are attached at the hip to seeing eachother saying hey and leaving and not talking for another week and a half or you have the amazing boyfriend that would do anything for you until he finds out your moving to boston which isnt calfiornia.... maybe this is just the reality of leaving and going to college? or maybe these people never were really my friends? either way im never going to understand and i basically just think i need to move on and grow up ahh but i dont want to i want to go back i want to be able to call him and have him drop everything just so i can see him or i want to be able to call her when something bad happens and i can cry to her and then have her come and get me and we can drive around for hours and smoke cigarettes and sing stupid songs at the tops of our lungs or i want to be bale ot call her and be like hey lets hang out today and acually chill with her and have fun... something i havent been able to do since school was out i wish i could have fun but i dont the only time i would consider myself to having fun is when im extremley intoxicated and have no idea what im even doing but im happy or im having fun but everyone else is having a wicked shitty time and then they end up making me feel bad and poof ends the fun.... hows it gunna be when im gone? are people even going to miss me? is he? is he gunna be happy now? are they gunna be happy now? i just want to stay in contact with everyone i never did anything wrong i ALWAYS considered myself to be a good friend whenever someone needed me i would drop ANYTHING that i was doing to try to make them feel better and can i honestly say my friends have done that for me? NOPE i cant.... i guess high school is basically defined as bitter sweet, the friends, the life lessons, the love, the memories everything and the only ill probably walk away is the memories i wont walk away with a best friend, a boyfriend, a person who touched me and ill never forget... ill simply walk away with memories...