i dont want to fall to pieces i just want to sit and stare at you
so my summer has started some shit thats going on right now is sooooo crazy and twisted and fucked up in oh so many ways... sometimes i wish i was completely different person with a completely different life or i wish i could turn back time and change sooo much if i could go back and change shit oh my god... my brian came home from the marines showed up on my doorstep with me not even knowing he was in the state it was wonderful and then did some stupid shit like i donno what to even think i dont know what the hell i want in my life in a way i want to start over so bad but then again i wouldnt want to leave somethings i have and i wish i knew how to do some much more like saying little things that can change a situation or the way you act in certain situations but nope i dont know and yea im learning but i want to know now before its too late i dont know what the hell im trying to say but i do know that this makes no sense what so ever but thats cool cause i havent slept in a whole day... i donno i need to clear my head though....