bi
bi-polar
bi-sexual..
it's a bi world after all..?
So weekend was good. If knackering.
Friday night Ian came up which was random. He was later than intended due to really bad conditions. I was getting antsy. We went over to the hazels for D&D. It was yet another new group, and was a little bit shite on my part. It didn't really get going much and I was just spaced out for most of it. we put on ghost rider afterwards but none of us saw it all the way through.
Saturday kaths relatives came round so me and Ian went ice skating.
Yeugh. Why. Why would anyone do that to themselves..? It was ace though. Really was. I regained a bit of self confidence and my mental outlook was greatly improved. We spent about 1.5 hours on the ice in total (not at the same time obviously.. breaks are good!!) I found I could skate better than last time I went, which isn't hard actually as last time I didn't manage 10 minutes :-(
My health has greatly improved though :-)
Anyhow Saturday night we went back to kath n martins and watched Alien which I'd not seen before. And Dave popped round for a bit & Mike was still there so it was a good social thingy.
Sunday we came back to mums and stuff and then went back to burnley to watch day after tomorrow and Ian went home and dropped me off too.
Very brief summary of events there.
My emotional state has been very up and down.. and that's not good. It's become steadily worse and worse over the past couple of weeks and I've been more and more out of it and angry and short with everything and everyone. This weekend got me out of here and spending time around friends was probably the best thing I could have done. It's been good.
I just need to sort out my head a bit more though. I'm not sure if all of this is just because I'm still at this location or if its something more. But hopefully my house will be sorted in 2 weeks and I'll be able to get out of here!
Me and mum are not seeing eye to eye and everything she says annoys the hell out of me.
One miracle is Ian's got a PC for my room, so I now can avoid parentals more and don't have them sniping at me for typing too loudly. Yay for Volucris.
So me & Ian are still itemish, despite my lack of thing towards him. I almost walloped him a few times this weekend cos of personal space issues but we sort of got to a thingy point. I'm not actually sure what's going on with me and him but I'm going with it and so far it's been good enough. Am trying not to analyze it ;-)
So yeh that's me.
Tonight I go to my da's house. First time I'll of seen my brother properly in a long, long time.
It's his birthday, I haven't got him anything but I'll throw together a card for him. Hmm hope it goes ok.
The health side of things.. ha.
Pain is a default setting, oddly my fatigue isnt too bad.. though looking at the time that may be because I slept for a very long time last night/this morning... My legs are forming a cue along with my arms and muscles and everything else to complain at me but I've put a sign up in the window saying "Out to lunch" and so far they havent been able to find me. Still hurts though. I think I've strung out that metaphor too much now. hehe. Yeh my minds a bit spacey, so I'm not sure what I'm writing anymore.
I have Bridget Jones on in the background and I'm eating sticky stale popcorn.
I have actually eaten half sensibly today though, if a lot.
I ate maltloaf for breakfast and then carrots, tomatoes and cucumber with dips.
I've somehow managed to gain a stone this month. Which is *not* good. I need to stop eating so much and so unhealthily, but I don't think i can up my exercise :-( I feel like I've done loads atm anyway..
On a yay note I got awarded DLA at same rate as last time, so my financial worries are eased slightly.. At least now I'm not going to have to live on savings :-) I didn't actually realise how much weight it had put on my mind not knowing whether I'd get it or not. Damn forms!
Still got to fill in & send off my IB form and get an IS form too. Darn. I've actually spent a lot of money this month, luckily my latest ebay thing didn't win so i didnt have to shell out £80 :-)
friends are good. really good. they are underrated. its coming close to a year since i found my 'true' friends.. and i'm really pleased at how its all gone. they somehow allow & encourage me to grow and change and things, which ive never experienced before. & ive also had people to share things with and create memories etc. yes, friends are good :-)
bi-sexual..
it's a bi world after all..?
So weekend was good. If knackering.
Friday night Ian came up which was random. He was later than intended due to really bad conditions. I was getting antsy. We went over to the hazels for D&D. It was yet another new group, and was a little bit shite on my part. It didn't really get going much and I was just spaced out for most of it. we put on ghost rider afterwards but none of us saw it all the way through.
Saturday kaths relatives came round so me and Ian went ice skating.
Yeugh. Why. Why would anyone do that to themselves..? It was ace though. Really was. I regained a bit of self confidence and my mental outlook was greatly improved. We spent about 1.5 hours on the ice in total (not at the same time obviously.. breaks are good!!) I found I could skate better than last time I went, which isn't hard actually as last time I didn't manage 10 minutes :-(
My health has greatly improved though :-)
Anyhow Saturday night we went back to kath n martins and watched Alien which I'd not seen before. And Dave popped round for a bit & Mike was still there so it was a good social thingy.
Sunday we came back to mums and stuff and then went back to burnley to watch day after tomorrow and Ian went home and dropped me off too.
Very brief summary of events there.
My emotional state has been very up and down.. and that's not good. It's become steadily worse and worse over the past couple of weeks and I've been more and more out of it and angry and short with everything and everyone. This weekend got me out of here and spending time around friends was probably the best thing I could have done. It's been good.
I just need to sort out my head a bit more though. I'm not sure if all of this is just because I'm still at this location or if its something more. But hopefully my house will be sorted in 2 weeks and I'll be able to get out of here!
Me and mum are not seeing eye to eye and everything she says annoys the hell out of me.
One miracle is Ian's got a PC for my room, so I now can avoid parentals more and don't have them sniping at me for typing too loudly. Yay for Volucris.
So me & Ian are still itemish, despite my lack of thing towards him. I almost walloped him a few times this weekend cos of personal space issues but we sort of got to a thingy point. I'm not actually sure what's going on with me and him but I'm going with it and so far it's been good enough. Am trying not to analyze it ;-)
So yeh that's me.
Tonight I go to my da's house. First time I'll of seen my brother properly in a long, long time.
It's his birthday, I haven't got him anything but I'll throw together a card for him. Hmm hope it goes ok.
The health side of things.. ha.
Pain is a default setting, oddly my fatigue isnt too bad.. though looking at the time that may be because I slept for a very long time last night/this morning... My legs are forming a cue along with my arms and muscles and everything else to complain at me but I've put a sign up in the window saying "Out to lunch" and so far they havent been able to find me. Still hurts though. I think I've strung out that metaphor too much now. hehe. Yeh my minds a bit spacey, so I'm not sure what I'm writing anymore.
I have Bridget Jones on in the background and I'm eating sticky stale popcorn.
I have actually eaten half sensibly today though, if a lot.
I ate maltloaf for breakfast and then carrots, tomatoes and cucumber with dips.
I've somehow managed to gain a stone this month. Which is *not* good. I need to stop eating so much and so unhealthily, but I don't think i can up my exercise :-( I feel like I've done loads atm anyway..
On a yay note I got awarded DLA at same rate as last time, so my financial worries are eased slightly.. At least now I'm not going to have to live on savings :-) I didn't actually realise how much weight it had put on my mind not knowing whether I'd get it or not. Damn forms!
Still got to fill in & send off my IB form and get an IS form too. Darn. I've actually spent a lot of money this month, luckily my latest ebay thing didn't win so i didnt have to shell out £80 :-)
friends are good. really good. they are underrated. its coming close to a year since i found my 'true' friends.. and i'm really pleased at how its all gone. they somehow allow & encourage me to grow and change and things, which ive never experienced before. & ive also had people to share things with and create memories etc. yes, friends are good :-)