I'm serious

[purpleskunk]

so yea... recently I have been putting a lot of thought into moving away... far away from NE... I told peteR and he isn't too keen on the idea... he doesn't feel right leaving his mother behind like that... Don't get me wrong... I wasn't all for it at first either... I worried about how people would feel... what I would be leaving behind... I never really thought about how I am not doing good for myself here... Recent talks with some people made me realize that (once again don't get me wrong) everyone/everything is holding me back... I'm too comfortable... yet it hurts... I fell into a rut... I need to feel alone sometimes to do better for myself... Here ,if something came up, I have friends and family close enough to help me at the drop of a hat... I don't want that... I want to fall and pick myself back up... I want to rely on myself...

When?Where?How? I don't know yet... I only know why... To better myself... I will probably apply to colleges and see where I get accepted and the financial aid... I know... I said help myself, but the gov can help for this...

I have quite some time before this all goes down... but it will and I wanted you to know before i just disappeared one day