HUGE RANT
So today marks the day john and i got back together last year. Last week I was really not excited for this week to come, because now begins most of the great memories I have of us. So when he fucking texted me saturday night and asked how i was feeling, all the hesitation i had for this week/month has multiplied. He has now done this three times to me this semester, what is the fucking deal. HE IS THE ONE WHO FUCKED THINGS UP IN THE FIRST PLACE. He says he cares about me, but how dare he do this. How dare he text me wanting to know how I am (drunk or not) when he didnt give two shits about how i felt back in May. Instead of making me upset saturday, those texts just pissed me the hell off. Why does he get to screw with me and ask how I am when he is the one who cut things off between us. He needs to grow some balls and realize what he wants. Does he want me back? and if not, he needs to stop talking to me. How fucking dare he do this to me, now? Three times this semester, three fucking times. He needs to get over himself.
What would I do if he asked me back? I dont fucking know anyway. its something I try not to think about, but when he fucking talks to me, thats all I think about and wonder about. It makes me miss him and so now when I was already thinking about our relationship he has to go do this. FUCK HIM, GROW SOME BALLS JOHN BARBER, AND STOP FUCKING AROUND WITH ME!!!!!!!!!
What would I do if he asked me back? I dont fucking know anyway. its something I try not to think about, but when he fucking talks to me, thats all I think about and wonder about. It makes me miss him and so now when I was already thinking about our relationship he has to go do this. FUCK HIM, GROW SOME BALLS JOHN BARBER, AND STOP FUCKING AROUND WITH ME!!!!!!!!!