old stuff
well here is some old stuff that i wrote back in freshman and sophomore years in high school. There is one thing about my poems that were written back then, they were short, brief and to the point. that and the detail which is so great i wish to put it in a descriptive poem contest or something. There are better i am just giving you the low down.
This one expresses how it feels to cry. i am sure you all know, in case you dont, here it is.
Tears
they tumble down
and turn smiles
upside down
they torture your heart
and they
tear you apeart
but most of all
they make you stronger
every tear that falls
this is about living your life in disbelief. about not seeing the truth when it is clearly in front of you, when you see that movie where the girl knows her guy is cheating on her, but refuses to realize it... this is what she feels. you may call her stupid but it hurts. and she may be emotionally too weak to stand up and take in all that is happening. so she lies to herself,...and she lives by it. and all the pain goes away...here it is.
Feeling Low
inside a lie
is where i hide
i cant seem to
find something to do
about all of it
alone is where i sit
cuz im feelin low
nothing to help me so
i cant help the feeling
and all the pain im dealing
My personal favorite is this one. it brings back a clear image of what i was thinking about. suffering and pain yes, but every clear thought...check it out.
Hard To Deal
my useless words pour out of me
wondering why i can not see
life means nothing more to me
than a dead bird in his tree
my feelings ignored everyday
nothing changes while i pray
my heart breaks more day by day
what more is there to say
nothing can change the way i feel
with stupid thoughts i can not deal
what more is there to deal
my heart is crumbles beggins to peal
Here is one i wrote for my "friends" i had back then. Little did I know just what I was writting about re-ocurred. My friends that I had then deserted me now and I was left to feel this all over again. Like one big re-occuring dream/nightmare or whatever. This one means a lot because I felt it twice.
living in a dream
to all my friends, if it wernt for them i wouldnt be where i am today
lost inside a dream,
is what my life seems.
twiztid and turned,
my heart is burned.
dont understand why,
but its written in the sky.
my life has been scared,
and loved from afar.
it doesnt seem simple,
this life i call mine,
love is supposed to be devine.
i just dont get it,
feels as if i dont fit.
my life makes no sence,
and it has no suspence.
my heart turns black,
its been under attack.
This one was actually published in a book printed out by the website that i wrote it on. it was nothing really special and i have the book somewhere up in my attic and everything. Its not really all taht special just the surreality at last
Lost
i am lost in a world
with no one to hold my hand,
no one to guide me,
in this new, unloved land.
every move i make
is sensed by a beast
who is hungry for my blood
to whom i would make a lovely feast.
my tears mean nothing.
i am forever gone.
every step i take
is a new day to dawn.
as i slowly disappear,
my flesh withers
and my blood pours out;
my skin withers.
i am now dust and bones,
soul free in the earth.
it wanders around,
lookin' for a victim first.
MY FIRST LOVE POEM EVER WRITTEN!! !ISNT IT BEAUTIFUL?!?!!? too bad the person i wrote it for is no longer in my life. but i still remember all the flustered feelings building up inside of me. the first time i actually thought i could love another being. yeah it was confusing, but i felt it.
Abused
my heart was overwhellmed with love at first sight,
when i saw you, i knew things were right.
you told me i was beautiful, had a pretty smile,
for me you said you'd walk a pretty mile.
the kiss you stole was the best i've had,
and even the thought, i was lucky, for that i was glad.
but now i only have began to see,
that you broke my heart, and you lied to me.
i can't move on but i am forced to inside,
there are so many feelings i have to hide.
i don't appriciate the thought of being used,
i'm not gonna let myself be abused.
I think this one explains itself
Fate
ever since the very first day
i never knew the words to say
i wished upon the very first star
to my suprise, here you are
how could luck be so great
i never relied on so called fate
my intuition tells me somethings up
unto my heart the pain has struck
i'm making wishes day by day
if life's a play then where's the stage
my life is changing by every glance
i would stop change if i had a chance
pain equals hurt through my eyes
where's the choice that spells out wise?
I dont know why i called this next one "wonders" but my confused little mind choose that title for a reason.
Wonders
As the sunsets over the blue shimmery sea,
all of my thoughts rush out of me
my mind keeps spinning with golden thoughts,
and with all the love people have brought
im thanking god above for the kindness recieved,
and hating the people that hate has retrieved.
i'm wondering without you what would life be?
im so glad that you have found me!
yet still a darkness is lost in my heart
as nature works its way ripping me apart
i try to stay stable and strong i aprear
but what in life should i have to fear?
This one expresses how it feels to cry. i am sure you all know, in case you dont, here it is.
Tears
they tumble down
and turn smiles
upside down
they torture your heart
and they
tear you apeart
but most of all
they make you stronger
every tear that falls
this is about living your life in disbelief. about not seeing the truth when it is clearly in front of you, when you see that movie where the girl knows her guy is cheating on her, but refuses to realize it... this is what she feels. you may call her stupid but it hurts. and she may be emotionally too weak to stand up and take in all that is happening. so she lies to herself,...and she lives by it. and all the pain goes away...here it is.
Feeling Low
inside a lie
is where i hide
i cant seem to
find something to do
about all of it
alone is where i sit
cuz im feelin low
nothing to help me so
i cant help the feeling
and all the pain im dealing
My personal favorite is this one. it brings back a clear image of what i was thinking about. suffering and pain yes, but every clear thought...check it out.
Hard To Deal
my useless words pour out of me
wondering why i can not see
life means nothing more to me
than a dead bird in his tree
my feelings ignored everyday
nothing changes while i pray
my heart breaks more day by day
what more is there to say
nothing can change the way i feel
with stupid thoughts i can not deal
what more is there to deal
my heart is crumbles beggins to peal
Here is one i wrote for my "friends" i had back then. Little did I know just what I was writting about re-ocurred. My friends that I had then deserted me now and I was left to feel this all over again. Like one big re-occuring dream/nightmare or whatever. This one means a lot because I felt it twice.
living in a dream
to all my friends, if it wernt for them i wouldnt be where i am today
lost inside a dream,
is what my life seems.
twiztid and turned,
my heart is burned.
dont understand why,
but its written in the sky.
my life has been scared,
and loved from afar.
it doesnt seem simple,
this life i call mine,
love is supposed to be devine.
i just dont get it,
feels as if i dont fit.
my life makes no sence,
and it has no suspence.
my heart turns black,
its been under attack.
This one was actually published in a book printed out by the website that i wrote it on. it was nothing really special and i have the book somewhere up in my attic and everything. Its not really all taht special just the surreality at last
Lost
i am lost in a world
with no one to hold my hand,
no one to guide me,
in this new, unloved land.
every move i make
is sensed by a beast
who is hungry for my blood
to whom i would make a lovely feast.
my tears mean nothing.
i am forever gone.
every step i take
is a new day to dawn.
as i slowly disappear,
my flesh withers
and my blood pours out;
my skin withers.
i am now dust and bones,
soul free in the earth.
it wanders around,
lookin' for a victim first.
MY FIRST LOVE POEM EVER WRITTEN!! !ISNT IT BEAUTIFUL?!?!!? too bad the person i wrote it for is no longer in my life. but i still remember all the flustered feelings building up inside of me. the first time i actually thought i could love another being. yeah it was confusing, but i felt it.
Abused
my heart was overwhellmed with love at first sight,
when i saw you, i knew things were right.
you told me i was beautiful, had a pretty smile,
for me you said you'd walk a pretty mile.
the kiss you stole was the best i've had,
and even the thought, i was lucky, for that i was glad.
but now i only have began to see,
that you broke my heart, and you lied to me.
i can't move on but i am forced to inside,
there are so many feelings i have to hide.
i don't appriciate the thought of being used,
i'm not gonna let myself be abused.
I think this one explains itself
Fate
ever since the very first day
i never knew the words to say
i wished upon the very first star
to my suprise, here you are
how could luck be so great
i never relied on so called fate
my intuition tells me somethings up
unto my heart the pain has struck
i'm making wishes day by day
if life's a play then where's the stage
my life is changing by every glance
i would stop change if i had a chance
pain equals hurt through my eyes
where's the choice that spells out wise?
I dont know why i called this next one "wonders" but my confused little mind choose that title for a reason.
Wonders
As the sunsets over the blue shimmery sea,
all of my thoughts rush out of me
my mind keeps spinning with golden thoughts,
and with all the love people have brought
im thanking god above for the kindness recieved,
and hating the people that hate has retrieved.
i'm wondering without you what would life be?
im so glad that you have found me!
yet still a darkness is lost in my heart
as nature works its way ripping me apart
i try to stay stable and strong i aprear
but what in life should i have to fear?