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[purplepanties19]

i was soo happy right now and it was ruined...by me. oy i don't know why i think about this stuff. i talked with this guy named luis for 3hrs and we're gonna hang out tomorrow. its gonne be awesome. then i thought about when august comes around, i want to meet jay but he is gonna be disappointed, i know it, he has something else in his head but its not right...he deserves more than me, i just.... ahhh!!!!!!i feel like yelling im soo fustrated. i wish i was perfect, okay maybe not perfect but better than i am now. i'm feeling soo sad right now, i wish i could cheer up but oh well, i'm just going to sleep and think of luis and how much fun we're gonna have. :)

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mal