I am too connected to you, to slip away, to fade awayy.
I figure id write an entry since i never do.
My whole life ive been trying to make people happy. make people like me. but lately ive realized that its all bullshit. most people only care about themselves. even if they are the nicest person... in the end they are only doing something because they are going to benefit from it. Im not saying that EVERYONE is like this but most of the people i know are. When i got married a lot of people didnt support me... like they were mad that i was leaving them... but they couldnt make me happy... they werent going to be sitting next to me for the rest of my life. or loving me. or having babies and a family with me. and now its 2 years later and im still married... me and my husband are so very happy and i believe that we've already lasted longer than some people would have thought. but we still love eachother just as much if not more than we did when we started dating. You know those feelings u get when u first start dating someone you like... or your realize u love someone.. those butterflys? well i still get them. i get them everyday. my stomache drops everytime my husband kisses me or touchs me. or everytime i realize that this guy is my husband... he has promised to be with me forever. we make eachother happy and i can only hope that everyone gets this feeling in there life. that everyone gets to be with the person they are hopelessly in love with. he saved me from everything... without him i wouldnt be the person i am. god knows where i would be. he gives me hope. and i only wanna appreciate him for the rest of my life. i would do anything to have him with me forever.
living away from home isnt as hard as i thought it would be. yeah i miss my family and my parents but its not like ill never see them again. i will be moving back home in about 7 months for good. i will never have to go through another deployment without my husband for 7 months. i will never have to say goodbye to him knowing that he is getting on a bus and going to war and could die. this makes me so happy.
i only wish that those people i grew up with could get their act together. life is too short and your killing yourself. its not worth it. you guys mean so much to me but ive almost giving up on you. do u wanna be like this forever? or do u wanna be happy and have a family like me? or have something meaningful in life besides dope?
i know im not perfect and ive made alot of mistakes but atleast im trying. and thats good enough.
sorry this makes no sense.
My whole life ive been trying to make people happy. make people like me. but lately ive realized that its all bullshit. most people only care about themselves. even if they are the nicest person... in the end they are only doing something because they are going to benefit from it. Im not saying that EVERYONE is like this but most of the people i know are. When i got married a lot of people didnt support me... like they were mad that i was leaving them... but they couldnt make me happy... they werent going to be sitting next to me for the rest of my life. or loving me. or having babies and a family with me. and now its 2 years later and im still married... me and my husband are so very happy and i believe that we've already lasted longer than some people would have thought. but we still love eachother just as much if not more than we did when we started dating. You know those feelings u get when u first start dating someone you like... or your realize u love someone.. those butterflys? well i still get them. i get them everyday. my stomache drops everytime my husband kisses me or touchs me. or everytime i realize that this guy is my husband... he has promised to be with me forever. we make eachother happy and i can only hope that everyone gets this feeling in there life. that everyone gets to be with the person they are hopelessly in love with. he saved me from everything... without him i wouldnt be the person i am. god knows where i would be. he gives me hope. and i only wanna appreciate him for the rest of my life. i would do anything to have him with me forever.
living away from home isnt as hard as i thought it would be. yeah i miss my family and my parents but its not like ill never see them again. i will be moving back home in about 7 months for good. i will never have to go through another deployment without my husband for 7 months. i will never have to say goodbye to him knowing that he is getting on a bus and going to war and could die. this makes me so happy.
i only wish that those people i grew up with could get their act together. life is too short and your killing yourself. its not worth it. you guys mean so much to me but ive almost giving up on you. do u wanna be like this forever? or do u wanna be happy and have a family like me? or have something meaningful in life besides dope?
i know im not perfect and ive made alot of mistakes but atleast im trying. and thats good enough.
sorry this makes no sense.