brb i gotta swirl
four times a day we take pills, three of those times its these pills we've been told are going in to kill the awfulness so we visualize it while taking them and it really helps to make space-battle-like-zapping noises. mine sound kind of like pppzzzeeeeewwww and hers sound like psh psh psh. it makes me laugh so hard every time. tonight she told me her first appointment next week is monday at tuesday, she meant monday at noon. my mum has brain cancer and its the most serious, terrifying thing i've ever witnessed but waking up beside her, staying home with her all day, and going to bed trying to force myself to stay awake every night just for a couple more minutes knowing she's there doesnt seem so scary since its with her and she's always been the sunshine in my heart.