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I can't wait for Firancon. It's officially 4 days from now. OMFG. SQUEEEEEE.
Sorry, Marcon people. I won't be around this time either. FC is concurrent, alas, and I cannot miss it - it's just too much fun! And besides, the plane tickets were mondo-cheapness this year too. $100 round trip to Baltimore, plus a few taxes! :) Can't beat that.
And this was stolen from trisket:
10 Things About 10 Of You
Pick ten people on your Friends list. Make a list of ten things youwould like to say, one to each person. Do not identify the people thestatements are addressed to.
1) Every time I look at you, I just sigh - if only. Maybe after I get a degree, have some financial worth, and don't feel so bad about my own situation. Until then I don't think I'll ever have courage enough for anyone, especially not you... Though, even if my situation changes, who's to say I will? Anyway: I am smitten. (Obligatory whimsical romance cruft)
2) I really miss you, and hope when we hung out a lot I didn't annoy you. I just hope you're doing alright now, because I feel disconnected... Not that I don't feel disconnected from just about everyone right now. Man, I sound far more emo than I feel.
3) You are infuriating to me, because I can't see how someone so intelligent can be so wrong. I tend to think of it as cultural and religious baggage, all inherited, and am discomforted by the idea that such shackles cannot be shrugged off even by the likes of you. I sometimes worry, though, that maybe you're right and I'm just too dumb to know it.
4) I feel like I've let you down. I feel like you've been one of the best friends I've ever had, and that you're so giving and generous, and I feel like I can't return it. One day I will - you can bet on it. I will reward you. (This applies to at least two of you. You know who you are.)
5) I am sad that we didn't get to know each other better. I always felt comfortable around you, and now I feel like we'll never be great friends. You make me wish I weren't so insular most of the time.
6) Are you sure you don't want to marry me to give me citizenship? o:) I make a mean Hamburger Helper.
7) You're my best friend, bar none. Nobody understands me as much as you do, and you help me out a lot too. You have been given a lot - and are almost apologetic for it. You're one of the smartest and best people I have ever met, and I would do anything for you. And I bet you'll never ever read this. :D
8) I consider you a lost opportunity - and a role model. You have accomplished so much in so little time, and I feel like a failure compared to you. I wanted to be with you once, but now I just want to be you. You are a role model to me, and I can't even admit it to you.
9) I love you so much and I miss you. You are probably my longest lasting friend - seriously! And I wish we lived closer so that we could see each other, or even that our schedules meshed. I never want to lose you as a friend... We have grown up together, and I feel like you are a truer friend than all the other people who stood beside us, and then walked away. You never did - and I love you endlessly for it.
10) I wish you would get into school. I empathize with you so much because we both came from seriously underprivileged backgrounds, and we have had to haul ourselves around by the bootstraps with minimal help. The life our parents had is a drag - it isn't worth it, it isn't even worth living in my opinion, below the poverty line. And as far as I can see, it's a much easier road to comfort and security with a stupid piece of paper that declares your intelligence, worth, or wallet-size. I worry about you sometimes, but I think, in the end, you're smart enough to make it no matter what. But still - get in school, please.
Sorry, Marcon people. I won't be around this time either. FC is concurrent, alas, and I cannot miss it - it's just too much fun! And besides, the plane tickets were mondo-cheapness this year too. $100 round trip to Baltimore, plus a few taxes! :) Can't beat that.
And this was stolen from trisket:
10 Things About 10 Of You
Pick ten people on your Friends list. Make a list of ten things youwould like to say, one to each person. Do not identify the people thestatements are addressed to.
1) Every time I look at you, I just sigh - if only. Maybe after I get a degree, have some financial worth, and don't feel so bad about my own situation. Until then I don't think I'll ever have courage enough for anyone, especially not you... Though, even if my situation changes, who's to say I will? Anyway: I am smitten. (Obligatory whimsical romance cruft)
2) I really miss you, and hope when we hung out a lot I didn't annoy you. I just hope you're doing alright now, because I feel disconnected... Not that I don't feel disconnected from just about everyone right now. Man, I sound far more emo than I feel.
3) You are infuriating to me, because I can't see how someone so intelligent can be so wrong. I tend to think of it as cultural and religious baggage, all inherited, and am discomforted by the idea that such shackles cannot be shrugged off even by the likes of you. I sometimes worry, though, that maybe you're right and I'm just too dumb to know it.
4) I feel like I've let you down. I feel like you've been one of the best friends I've ever had, and that you're so giving and generous, and I feel like I can't return it. One day I will - you can bet on it. I will reward you. (This applies to at least two of you. You know who you are.)
5) I am sad that we didn't get to know each other better. I always felt comfortable around you, and now I feel like we'll never be great friends. You make me wish I weren't so insular most of the time.
6) Are you sure you don't want to marry me to give me citizenship? o:) I make a mean Hamburger Helper.
7) You're my best friend, bar none. Nobody understands me as much as you do, and you help me out a lot too. You have been given a lot - and are almost apologetic for it. You're one of the smartest and best people I have ever met, and I would do anything for you. And I bet you'll never ever read this. :D
8) I consider you a lost opportunity - and a role model. You have accomplished so much in so little time, and I feel like a failure compared to you. I wanted to be with you once, but now I just want to be you. You are a role model to me, and I can't even admit it to you.
9) I love you so much and I miss you. You are probably my longest lasting friend - seriously! And I wish we lived closer so that we could see each other, or even that our schedules meshed. I never want to lose you as a friend... We have grown up together, and I feel like you are a truer friend than all the other people who stood beside us, and then walked away. You never did - and I love you endlessly for it.
10) I wish you would get into school. I empathize with you so much because we both came from seriously underprivileged backgrounds, and we have had to haul ourselves around by the bootstraps with minimal help. The life our parents had is a drag - it isn't worth it, it isn't even worth living in my opinion, below the poverty line. And as far as I can see, it's a much easier road to comfort and security with a stupid piece of paper that declares your intelligence, worth, or wallet-size. I worry about you sometimes, but I think, in the end, you're smart enough to make it no matter what. But still - get in school, please.