i'll hum myself to sleep.
tonight was indescribabley the best night ever!!!!!
jon i'm sorry i couldn't make it! i really am!
i felt so sick when i woke up its so weird how my emotions have so much to do with how i feel phisically...right now i really don't like my dad. i hope i don't have to go to his house tomorrow i'm gonna be a bitch to him & i don't care if he yells at me at this point. he's made me feel like such shit latly & usually i talk about how terrible my mother is but since she's been on her medication she's gotten so much better. my dad's suppored me through the whole thing too & he looked at it from my point of view but last night all that went down the drain or something. like everything he's ever thought all of a sudden turned around to being on mom's side or something. i really have no idea all i know is he's an asshole & when he made me cry when we were diving into mom's drive way last night i ran out & i fell on the steps it hurt so much & my dad just drove away & i can't help but think he saw me & didn't want to help me. so i ran inside & ploped on my bed, cryed soo much & desided to update my journal...so thats what that was all about last night with running away. then i just went to sleep with out any washing up or anything i felt sooo shity!
mike you've helped me so much it's unbelievable...can feel soo crappy & if i talk to you or i'm with you it'll all go away...and you make me so amazingly happy! wow! i heart you so much!
AHH i love summer, i love friends, i love school almost being out, i love this movie sooo muuch & i love life except for the little bits when i have to deal with me parents.
jon i'm sorry i couldn't make it! i really am!
i felt so sick when i woke up its so weird how my emotions have so much to do with how i feel phisically...right now i really don't like my dad. i hope i don't have to go to his house tomorrow i'm gonna be a bitch to him & i don't care if he yells at me at this point. he's made me feel like such shit latly & usually i talk about how terrible my mother is but since she's been on her medication she's gotten so much better. my dad's suppored me through the whole thing too & he looked at it from my point of view but last night all that went down the drain or something. like everything he's ever thought all of a sudden turned around to being on mom's side or something. i really have no idea all i know is he's an asshole & when he made me cry when we were diving into mom's drive way last night i ran out & i fell on the steps it hurt so much & my dad just drove away & i can't help but think he saw me & didn't want to help me. so i ran inside & ploped on my bed, cryed soo much & desided to update my journal...so thats what that was all about last night with running away. then i just went to sleep with out any washing up or anything i felt sooo shity!
mike you've helped me so much it's unbelievable...can feel soo crappy & if i talk to you or i'm with you it'll all go away...and you make me so amazingly happy! wow! i heart you so much!
AHH i love summer, i love friends, i love school almost being out, i love this movie sooo muuch & i love life except for the little bits when i have to deal with me parents.