fuck shit gawdamn.

[purplejenergy]

dood. it totally broke my collarbone on friday nite while riding. someone thought it was good idea to start construction on the katy trail without puttin up a barricade or warnings about construction starting. I've spent the last couple of days in a self pitying pain medicine haze. Fuck that feeling sorry for myself shit. fuck that bryan hovering over me shit too. I mean, he's nice and its cute how he wants to take care of me but GAWDDAMNIT. I've been hurt before. I'm dizzy agin with the post concussive vertigo, but i've been dizzy before, too. it's the broken bone that's throwing me. i did an endo after hitting pile of dirt and flew ten feet,landed on my head and my back -in that order- with my feet still clipped in. my bike landed on top of me and then bounced off, while i slid about 3 feet. This is all according to Bryan, he turned around just in time to watch me land. I got a lovely ride to baylor in an ambulance after Bryan had to make like 3 calls to 911, then go guide the ambulance crew to the trail and pull the barricade poles out of the ground so they could drive up to me.
Kurt was too drunk to come get me or come to the hospital so he asked if Bryan would take care of things. So Bryan did.
I broke my left clavicle, and wouldn't you know they can't do shit about it but put my arm in a sling? FOR 6 FUCKING WEEKS. So yeah I cant do the hotter n Hell Hundred ride i've been training for since april. I may not even get to ride a century this year at all.
I AM MIGHTILY PISSED OFF.
i go to the ortho on friday with Kurt. I am in contact with an attorney already. my arm hurts. I miss riding my bike.
Broken bones suck.