I ain't @*%$(% dead yet!!
Man. I can't believe that it's really been so long since I've written a journal entry. It's not for lack of things to say or people to curse out. I just haven't really felt like writing that much and having certain people read this. But, I need to write about this, at least for myself, so....
My brother is getting married next week. I still can't believe that he's actually settling down. It's been a little rough coordinating everything, with him in Japan, his fiance in Miami and us up here. But for the most part everything seems to be going pretty smoothly. We're all very happy form him, and we definitely are going to have to enjoy the few days we're going to spend with him next week, since he's going to have to live in Japan for the next 4 years now, so we probably won't be seeing too much of him after next week.
There was a lot of tension around here for the past couple of weeks. My dad went to get an x-ray, and it showed a dark spot on his lung. They couldn't confirm what it was, so he had to go get a CAT Scan. My mom was on pins and needles for the past week and a half. We didn't talk about it too much outside of the first day when she came home crying about it. But I could tell it was weighing on her mind. And even though my dad would never show what he percieves to be a weakness by saying he was worried about it, I could tell he was a lot more concerned about it than he was letting on. Me personally...it was on my mind a lot for the fist couple of days (and, like always, when I might have needed someone to talk to, my friends were nowhere to be found. They're only around when THEY need something. But that's another story), but then I just told myself that worrying about it without knowing the results wouldn't help the situation at all, and I just decided not to worry about it until I heard definitively what was wrong. Even if it came back bad, I knew my dad has always been strong and a fighter, so I was confident that he would be able to beat anything he was faced with. And I had to be strong for my mom, since I knew she wouldn't have been able to handle it well at all. But fortunately, the results came back this week, and there was nothing wrong with him. So it goes without saying that that was a huge relief for everyone. I just hope that maybe it will scare him enough to at least cut back on smoking a little, evne though I doubt it. But regardless, I"m glad that everything turned out for the best.
And now, something about me. I was looking on Yahoo Personals one day (don't ask why), and I came across this guy's profile that sounded pretty interesting. Refusing to play 20 bucks a month for a service that you can find so many places for free, I decided to go to the one place that everyone hangs out at and try to find him there.......Myspace. So I looked up the zip code for the city he listed and did a search, and I came across someone else's profile. Someone who, admittedly was extremeeeeeeeely hot. I clicked on his profile, expecting to be disappointed to find out that he was into drugs or smoking or partying and clubbing every night of the week (already tried that one). But, much to my (pleasant) surprise, he wasn't into any of those things. He actually mentioned a lot of things that I was into. He mentioned that he visited clubs rarely, which isn't the worst thing in the world. So I decided to contact him. It started off pretty slowly, with us just talking through messages on Myspace. He was really cool to talk to though, and it seemed like we had a lot of things in common. He's really into videogames, so that was the main thing we talked about. About a week and a half later he asked me to play him online in Mortal Kombat: Deception on the PS2. Of course, I sold my old, half broken PS2 awhile ago. So my cousin came to the rescue and let me borrow hers, which she never plays anyway. So ran out to rent the game, and a couple of days later, we got to play. It was a lot of fun, too. He played for about 3 and a half hours. It was about even on the fighting game (Even though I won 10-7 =P), but he pretty much owned me in the puzzle game, and especially in the chess game. But it was still a great time. Eventually, I worked up the nerve to ask him to exchange phone #'s with me (finding out that he's shy, too). So after seeing who would get over their shyness first, he called me...or tried to, anyway, since he wound up dialing the wrong #. So I called him, and we talked for a couple of hours. It went pretty well. He was telling me about how much he was into the Yugioh card game, and I told him how I always wanted to learn how to play a card game like that (which was actually true, not just something I was saying to try to get him to like me. Even though I was open to learning any card game, I was probably more interested in learning Magic: The Gathering). So, I said that if he'd show me how to play, I'd buy a deck and try to get into it. And that's how we agreed to meet. I found a starter deck (which was only 10 bucks, fortunately), and we set up a day to meet. We agreed that we'd meet at the mall at Wizards of the Coast and sit down and play, and then go out to eat later.
So I got a haircut on Tuesday before I went to see him (from my friend Allen, of all people!!! And he actually did a damn good job, too), got dressed up (and looked pretty nice, if I do say so myself), and drove up to Woodbridge Mall to meet him. Driving up there, I realized how long it's been since I've been in that area. After thinking about it, it had to be the last time I was with Dave, which was quite awhile. It's the first time I've been up there and there was NO road construction going on. Places I remember going have disappeared, and all these new places have popped up. I realized I need to go there more often to keep up. Anyhoo, I got to the mall about 5 minutes early, so I decided to walk around and find WotC again. Walking around, I realized something...WotC wasn't in the mall anymore. Anywhere. Needless to say, this made me VERY nervous. Especially since he was really late. I was starting to think that I had been royally fucked over. I checked my phone, and realized he had called me, so I called him back, and found out that he was stuck in traffic. So I just walked around for a couple of minutes, and then waited by the Applebee's for him (which fortunately, was still there), and sure enough, he showed up. And, he was still very hot in real life. So after I told him that the store wasn't in the mall, we just walked around and talked for awhile. We went to a couple of video game stores, and after realizing that there really wasn't anywhere for us to sit, we left the mall and went to Chili's to get something to eat. We had a funny moment, because we were in the middle of a conversation when we walked in, and as the guy was taking us to my seats, I said "I'd have to slap him", which was apart of our convo. The guy seating us turned around so quick and looked so afraid. After he sat us and left, me and Wo just started busting out laughing. I felt bad, but at the same time.....why the hell would I want to smack the guy anyway since we just walked in? But we had a great time at dinner. We talked alot about our interests and stuff, trying to convince each other what to get into. We were probably there for about an hour, doing more talking than eating. After we left, we walked to Barnes & Nobles, thinking we could sit at one of the tables and play Yugioh, but of course they were packed, and we didn't see any empty seats. So, we just drove around and talked for about 90 minutes. It was great. It reminded of me of what I used to do with Scott when we used to talk (once again, another story for another day). After that, we went back to the mall parking lot and just talked the night away. It was great. It's been a really long time since I've been able to do that with someone. And it felt really good, too.
So, at the end of the night, we were sitting there, and he asked me what I was thinking about. I was honestly thinking that I wanted to kiss him, but I was way too shy to say so, so I just smiled and said nothing. So I asked him what he was thinking about, and he had this huge grin and said "I'll say nothing, too". So then I asked him what he was REALLY thinking. He started blushing and laughing, and turned really shy all of a sudden. It was cute. And it went on for about 10 or 15 minutes, with me trying to get him to say what was on his mind, and him just laughing and giggling. I did get him to say that he thought I was a really sweet guy, and how great of a time he had had hanging out with me. I said I felt the same way, but I knew that that wasn't all that was on his mind. So I asked him what letter did it begin with. He was too shy to even do that. So after we agreed that it was a 4 letter word on his mind, he finally said it ended with an S. I said 1 or 2. He said 2. And I said that that was the same thing I was thinking the same thing. And he gave me this huge smile....man, his smile is amazing. So then we finally leaned in and kissed, and it was great. After a minute or two, we drove a little further down to get away from the creepy security guy, we parked and kissed and cuddled for a long while. It felt really, really good. I didn't want the night to end. But of course it did. So I drove him back to his car, and the security guy was STILL there. Extremely creepy. So we kissed again, and we left. And I haven't been able to stop smiling since. I had kind of given up on actually being able to meet anyone, much less anyone that I could really get along with and have so many things in common with. But I guess this shows that patience really is a virtue. It's been a really long time since I've been with someone, and now I've met someone who is truly amazing.
My brother is getting married next week. I still can't believe that he's actually settling down. It's been a little rough coordinating everything, with him in Japan, his fiance in Miami and us up here. But for the most part everything seems to be going pretty smoothly. We're all very happy form him, and we definitely are going to have to enjoy the few days we're going to spend with him next week, since he's going to have to live in Japan for the next 4 years now, so we probably won't be seeing too much of him after next week.
There was a lot of tension around here for the past couple of weeks. My dad went to get an x-ray, and it showed a dark spot on his lung. They couldn't confirm what it was, so he had to go get a CAT Scan. My mom was on pins and needles for the past week and a half. We didn't talk about it too much outside of the first day when she came home crying about it. But I could tell it was weighing on her mind. And even though my dad would never show what he percieves to be a weakness by saying he was worried about it, I could tell he was a lot more concerned about it than he was letting on. Me personally...it was on my mind a lot for the fist couple of days (and, like always, when I might have needed someone to talk to, my friends were nowhere to be found. They're only around when THEY need something. But that's another story), but then I just told myself that worrying about it without knowing the results wouldn't help the situation at all, and I just decided not to worry about it until I heard definitively what was wrong. Even if it came back bad, I knew my dad has always been strong and a fighter, so I was confident that he would be able to beat anything he was faced with. And I had to be strong for my mom, since I knew she wouldn't have been able to handle it well at all. But fortunately, the results came back this week, and there was nothing wrong with him. So it goes without saying that that was a huge relief for everyone. I just hope that maybe it will scare him enough to at least cut back on smoking a little, evne though I doubt it. But regardless, I"m glad that everything turned out for the best.
And now, something about me. I was looking on Yahoo Personals one day (don't ask why), and I came across this guy's profile that sounded pretty interesting. Refusing to play 20 bucks a month for a service that you can find so many places for free, I decided to go to the one place that everyone hangs out at and try to find him there.......Myspace. So I looked up the zip code for the city he listed and did a search, and I came across someone else's profile. Someone who, admittedly was extremeeeeeeeely hot. I clicked on his profile, expecting to be disappointed to find out that he was into drugs or smoking or partying and clubbing every night of the week (already tried that one). But, much to my (pleasant) surprise, he wasn't into any of those things. He actually mentioned a lot of things that I was into. He mentioned that he visited clubs rarely, which isn't the worst thing in the world. So I decided to contact him. It started off pretty slowly, with us just talking through messages on Myspace. He was really cool to talk to though, and it seemed like we had a lot of things in common. He's really into videogames, so that was the main thing we talked about. About a week and a half later he asked me to play him online in Mortal Kombat: Deception on the PS2. Of course, I sold my old, half broken PS2 awhile ago. So my cousin came to the rescue and let me borrow hers, which she never plays anyway. So ran out to rent the game, and a couple of days later, we got to play. It was a lot of fun, too. He played for about 3 and a half hours. It was about even on the fighting game (Even though I won 10-7 =P), but he pretty much owned me in the puzzle game, and especially in the chess game. But it was still a great time. Eventually, I worked up the nerve to ask him to exchange phone #'s with me (finding out that he's shy, too). So after seeing who would get over their shyness first, he called me...or tried to, anyway, since he wound up dialing the wrong #. So I called him, and we talked for a couple of hours. It went pretty well. He was telling me about how much he was into the Yugioh card game, and I told him how I always wanted to learn how to play a card game like that (which was actually true, not just something I was saying to try to get him to like me. Even though I was open to learning any card game, I was probably more interested in learning Magic: The Gathering). So, I said that if he'd show me how to play, I'd buy a deck and try to get into it. And that's how we agreed to meet. I found a starter deck (which was only 10 bucks, fortunately), and we set up a day to meet. We agreed that we'd meet at the mall at Wizards of the Coast and sit down and play, and then go out to eat later.
So I got a haircut on Tuesday before I went to see him (from my friend Allen, of all people!!! And he actually did a damn good job, too), got dressed up (and looked pretty nice, if I do say so myself), and drove up to Woodbridge Mall to meet him. Driving up there, I realized how long it's been since I've been in that area. After thinking about it, it had to be the last time I was with Dave, which was quite awhile. It's the first time I've been up there and there was NO road construction going on. Places I remember going have disappeared, and all these new places have popped up. I realized I need to go there more often to keep up. Anyhoo, I got to the mall about 5 minutes early, so I decided to walk around and find WotC again. Walking around, I realized something...WotC wasn't in the mall anymore. Anywhere. Needless to say, this made me VERY nervous. Especially since he was really late. I was starting to think that I had been royally fucked over. I checked my phone, and realized he had called me, so I called him back, and found out that he was stuck in traffic. So I just walked around for a couple of minutes, and then waited by the Applebee's for him (which fortunately, was still there), and sure enough, he showed up. And, he was still very hot in real life. So after I told him that the store wasn't in the mall, we just walked around and talked for awhile. We went to a couple of video game stores, and after realizing that there really wasn't anywhere for us to sit, we left the mall and went to Chili's to get something to eat. We had a funny moment, because we were in the middle of a conversation when we walked in, and as the guy was taking us to my seats, I said "I'd have to slap him", which was apart of our convo. The guy seating us turned around so quick and looked so afraid. After he sat us and left, me and Wo just started busting out laughing. I felt bad, but at the same time.....why the hell would I want to smack the guy anyway since we just walked in? But we had a great time at dinner. We talked alot about our interests and stuff, trying to convince each other what to get into. We were probably there for about an hour, doing more talking than eating. After we left, we walked to Barnes & Nobles, thinking we could sit at one of the tables and play Yugioh, but of course they were packed, and we didn't see any empty seats. So, we just drove around and talked for about 90 minutes. It was great. It reminded of me of what I used to do with Scott when we used to talk (once again, another story for another day). After that, we went back to the mall parking lot and just talked the night away. It was great. It's been a really long time since I've been able to do that with someone. And it felt really good, too.
So, at the end of the night, we were sitting there, and he asked me what I was thinking about. I was honestly thinking that I wanted to kiss him, but I was way too shy to say so, so I just smiled and said nothing. So I asked him what he was thinking about, and he had this huge grin and said "I'll say nothing, too". So then I asked him what he was REALLY thinking. He started blushing and laughing, and turned really shy all of a sudden. It was cute. And it went on for about 10 or 15 minutes, with me trying to get him to say what was on his mind, and him just laughing and giggling. I did get him to say that he thought I was a really sweet guy, and how great of a time he had had hanging out with me. I said I felt the same way, but I knew that that wasn't all that was on his mind. So I asked him what letter did it begin with. He was too shy to even do that. So after we agreed that it was a 4 letter word on his mind, he finally said it ended with an S. I said 1 or 2. He said 2. And I said that that was the same thing I was thinking the same thing. And he gave me this huge smile....man, his smile is amazing. So then we finally leaned in and kissed, and it was great. After a minute or two, we drove a little further down to get away from the creepy security guy, we parked and kissed and cuddled for a long while. It felt really, really good. I didn't want the night to end. But of course it did. So I drove him back to his car, and the security guy was STILL there. Extremely creepy. So we kissed again, and we left. And I haven't been able to stop smiling since. I had kind of given up on actually being able to meet anyone, much less anyone that I could really get along with and have so many things in common with. But I guess this shows that patience really is a virtue. It's been a really long time since I've been with someone, and now I've met someone who is truly amazing.